It has stopped raining for a moment. All week the city and I have been wet with a mix of water and tears. But it has stopped for a moment ( Read more... )

Walking this petty pace from day to day, and it feels like time is repeating. I never feel like i am moving on... too many things carry over from one aspect of my life to the other that i never get that elusive fresh start. He is moving far far away for some woman, and he thought he should let me know. He is moving away from the water (who is this ( Read more... )

When did women have it right? Ancient Greeks with the goddess worshiping- Matriarchal societies, where we only kissed the feet of other women (feet, face, ...) while the men are out in the field bringing in supper. Or was it Tudor England, when Elizabeth ruled and Shakespeare wrote, and most women wore grey and didn't care. Or was it with Bugsy and ( Read more... )

He asked me to show emotion. "can't you show me that you are in pain too". I don't think I can. I have thrown myself into reading books, book after book, as my feeble attempt to escape my life (well at least I know it right?). I used to use theater as my diversion, oh how things have changed. It is odd to look back on who you were, and who you are ( Read more... )

If we are not content with our identity- and who is?- then the supposition that it is 'our' identity provides us with the means to change it. Why is this so hard for man to understand? We CAN change our identity and WE will have to. While I am agnostic, I do not see any God even wanting to change someone else's bad habits. These are what we learn ( Read more... )

What to do when the world falls in your lap and you sit there looking like a clumsy fool at this sphere on your padded legs which is looking up at you for the answer, something that you don't have and never have had, and you look down at it and say "sorry buddy... bounce elsewhere" but when it does you spend the rest of your life regretting the one ( Read more... )

Looking into the waves of a new day, i see a continuous spray of shit floating my way. Why is it that I search in movies for an outlet to my pain? Why can I never find one ( Read more... )

So how do you que fate up? What is fate...? Right now i am sitting here thinking about what has just started. Lately i have been emotionally distressed, because... well lets see. I don't know what i want to do about anything: a job, a future, me. Going back to college right now seems like a bad idea, but i don't know why that is ( Read more... )