Got a job finally. Such glamorous work. It's a shitty job but I'm trying this thing called responsibility these days, so i keep it. It starts at 2am most mornings, which helps me with my goal of not drinking so much. Two birds, one stone. Also on track at the local college to get back in to school. Gonna have to repeat Math 140 if i want to stay in ( Read more... )

I've been biking 10 miles a day. i've lost so much weight and am in great shape. and i've been smoking fewer and fewer cigarettes, averaging 4-5 a day. smoking weed daily and i've never been more motivated in my life. i can't remember the last time i've felt this confident. life is just fantastic ( Read more... )

i had a dream that the apocalypse was upon us. the sky filled up black with drone fighters and paratroopers, some plant-based civilization invading. after a quick capture and corralling us into these small sweatshops (maybe 20-40 people a compound) we instigated a revolution at the one i was at. with the help of some sympathetic plant-people, i ( Read more... )

feeling... introspective these days. i feel like i've been given a lot to contemplate.

i feel like a veil has been lifted, i've been seeing what i believe to be the basic building blocks of "adulthood"

i was never privy to such information before, either because it was never revealed to me, or more likely, because i failed to follow the story. i feel ( Read more... )

strange how easily minds can be twisted. how easy it is to mold my own emotions to conform to how i think i should be feeling. or vice versa. making truth out of nothing, creating stories to explain rationally why i need to feel a certain way. turn jealousy into ecstasy, wrath into love, sadness into indifference, apathy is the easiest to create ( Read more... )

I can't even begin to describe what i'm going through, but i'm gonna try anyways ( Read more... )

i've got no money, no gas, half a pack of smokes, no dinner. BUT i've got a warm place to sleep, ocean view, and great friends to spend my wasted time with ( Read more... )

so i just moved down to the south bay, torrance to be exact. been here a week. moved in with alvin and christian ( Read more... )

this rain has my mind racing. i've always loved rain, and i guess that's not how most people here react ( Read more... )

my dad knows his best friend is about to be "let go", but because of policy, can't let him know. i watch it tearing my dad apart, being unable to tell him, and it kills me. how would i feel, would i be able to do the same in my dad's position? not a chance, i'm not strong enough. i'm not sure i want to be strong enough, if i know my best friend is ( Read more... )