My baby Sasha was suffering from an enlarged liver which was pushing up against her lungs and sending toxins to her brain causing seizures among other things. She was getting better from medication. Earlier today she looked so much better, eating, walking, doing things she use to. Then she started labor breathing while laying down near me and I ( Read more... )

I’ve went down every path and as it seems the only path that ever seems to be right is not one through thought or common sense, but the path of faith and hope. I’ve tried all I can when it wasn’t enough, but you just sometimes cant push a wall. I’ve given up when told that nothing else could be done, then later on told I shouldn’t have by the same ( Read more... )

I thought of what to write to explain my life as it is right now. I can’t riddle this one up or come out with anything catchy to my own tune. Everything I thought of what could happen has happen for the better or worse. Guess what? I’m still left smiling for the better or worse. All in my palms, everything I could ask for, now watch as I turn it ( Read more... )

What if you could be saved, would you really want to? You can’t stand on your two feet forever, why even bother to pretend and hurt yourself? Sooner or later you break, everything breaks, there’s no running from it. A person is only as strong as the morals they stand by, but you can’t stand forever. You may think you’re the only one to crack a ( Read more... )

I would wear sunglasses just to feel cool, but then I'd just be another person in the crowd. I could whisper the cold hard truth, but it would just break your gullible heart. I love to make you happy, but your smile isn't as contagious as you think. Why can't you stand back and look at the whole picture, the truth isn't hidden. Every thought that ( Read more... )

What compels your sanity when all you treasure seared as the city sleeps in flames. You’re incentive unquenchable as a fallen angel in barren lands that stretched out for miles. You’re soul so empty and yet so full of existence as if your final wish was to complete an aspiration. You live off the bright side of suffering, but your faith in the ( Read more... )

Even when you lost all hope there are still times, maybe an event special to you that just maybe some one special to you might be there just for you. You look around one side hoping and doubting yourself just to prove yourself right, you look at the other side with all but positive thoughts and once again shut down. When you know the answer why do ( Read more... )

i miss my leaning rock, i miss the love talk, i miss falling asleep to her sweet voice, i miss having some one stupid enough to trade hearts, i miss having some one to call late at night, i miss having some one worrying over me, i miss not being scared to come to some one, i miss the feeling i got in her presence, i miss the smile i put on her face ( Read more... )

I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted ( Read more... )

I have but few dreams and many nightmares, but the few dreams i have are the onces i fancy to reoccur or perhaps come true. I've seem to be awakening more than usual from these dreams, i beleive its time to create something different than to keep dreaming of a childhood fantasy. I'm no longer a child in a doll world, but a man in the big world. I ( Read more... )