Wanting to shake it so bad. Shake off that gross heavy feeling of need. Then stand up straight and walk tall with a little pep in your step ( Read more... )

Me and the blank page had a staring contest for 30 minuets . Now my brain hurts and my eyelids are heavy.

I think for this very moment I am content and there is nothing to say about that.

Don't worry I am sure the liquid will overflow the cup again soon.

The inevitable never looked so good.

:)

People say she is full of it.

As if she can't feel the liquid build and stagger over the glass telling her tounge to spill it.

Today has this strange calm about it.

Stardust this evening.

Carnival tonight? eh :/

Edit:
"Take a handful of dirt and smell it like in that one movie"

Bad girls club is now my favorite reality show. I am living vicariously.

cunt.

I can't stop hoping my phone will make a sound. I pick it up every so often on the verge of sending a text. This is fucking difficult as hell. Ughhhhhh. Damn you/me.

"What is to much anyway", she says. It always makes me feel a little lighter about it. I am happy for not drinking myself into oblivion the past few times I have gone out (with the exception of monday). I want to start cutting down so that I can savor the moments ( Read more... )

Stange days these few past. I havent eatin or showerd in well over 48 hours. My brain is mush and my hands wont stop shaking. I don't mind it though. Yesterday was all about me and it's just what I needed.

Has she lost all respect for herself or is respect eating her whole? Things will continue to get worse for her before they get better. Worse then better worse then better. Really though what is worse or better anymore? She will be happy with the nouns (people, places and things) around her but not happy with the the things inside. That's where the ( Read more... )

I am disappointed in myself for acting so out of character. I don't like that the things I do are topic of conversation for the evening though. Hope everyone enjoyed themselves. I really don't care about this that much I just needed to let it out ( Read more... )