christmas break. i see a spiral happening. i live by that spiral. i should really learn to trust it by now. i really need to get up off my ass while im at home. i burned myself out this semester. i still managed to get a's and b's on 6 classes (thinking i was going to fail french..and got a b) and party a bit(but not too much). i just make myself ( Read more... )

i know this may sound crazy, but sometimes i can predict circumstances, well in advance...like two people who don't even know each other getting togethor and start dating...and suddenly they meet each other and they start dating...or that certain people will no longer be friends, even when they get along fine, and suddenly it happens. maybe i sense ( Read more... )

at 1st it is devastating, and then i learn to live with it. it becomes normal. sometimes the devastation can become a good thing in the end. so what is good..and what is devastating? the moment is never really there, its always passing...passing..moving...changing...such a flux of sorts.

wise trees
with a taste of both worlds
harmonic
yin yang of sorts
sitting calmly
slowly
observing
watching the fast paced world twirl around
as we humans live and die so quickly
the trees
humble and wise
with a taste of both worlds
sit
and watch
and know

go tribal.

its the only way.

confidence=0

in my new apt, pretty nice, my own room, bathroom. my sweetmates are a little strange and dont drink and talk a lot, but its alright, it could be worse. cnu is starting to look really nice, we have a tropical smoothie, panera bread, ben and jerrys, and subway on campus now as well as sushi and spice and schooners of course. its all within a 2 ( Read more... )

so lifehouse is coming to play here ( Read more... )

oh my god, i've never been so jealous in my life. yes, i am going to admit it. its a terrible feeling. especially when it doesnt have to be that way. i want to talk to him but i dont want to come off as this crazy clingy type girl and it's obvious he doesnt want to talk to me, so its for the best that i try not to. i dont really, thats the thing, ( Read more... )

so i just got this letter in the mail from my roomate. she sounds really cool. her name is ashanti, and i think she is black but that is even cooler. theres only like 2% black at cnu too. anyway, she is from farmville, and is majoring in civil rights. i hope she doesnt think i am weird. well she has to think i am weird, cause i emailed her back and ( Read more... )