Nope... there hasn't been any middle ground lately. I've gone for really good to really bad then back to really good again. Well right now things are great. I think I'm doing a lot better with everything. I have a real problem with jealousy though. I wish I didn't get jealous but I do all the time anyway. I know that Brandi loves me just as ( Read more... )

I don't know. I've been letting every little thing get to me lately. That's not like me at all. I can usually just laugh at most things and not let them get me down. That isn't the cause lately. I've been getting mad at everyone, for no reason. I just feel like I could snap on anyone at anytime. I don't like this feeling. I wish I could ( Read more... )

Yea, as everyone could tell today, I am a little upset. I’m just sick of it all. There is too much happening. But it’s my business. And I only share it with one other person. I know I upset some people by not telling them what was going on. But it’s just my business. If I want you to know I will tell you. So please quite trying to figure ( Read more... )

There has been a lot on mine mind lately. I've been trying to get things strait in my head. Just when I think I do, something happens that makes me question my decision. I have a lot of decisions that I have to make here really soon. Some my not be as big as others... but still way to many. I'm just glad that God has giving me someone to help ( Read more... )

Prom, Prom, Prom. This week has been crazy. Well it’s been a while since I last posted so let’s back track. Well they block livejournal at school so I haven’t really had time to write ( Read more... )

The next morning came way to fast. Everyone got up and left. Me and Brandi got up and cleaned up the place then started up to camp. Camp wasn’t what I expected for the most part. It was really crazy. I really wasn’t having all that much fun at first. They were all drinking. And it just wasn’t good. Me, Brandi and Jesse went for a walk. ( Read more... )

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Well within these couple of days, we had vehicle problem; big problems. Went to talk about the Blazer he thought he found another motor, who know? The car lost its brakes. Dad’s truck has a transmission leak. Fun stuff. That’s why I haven’t gotten a chance to see her yet. I kind of feel bad about only talking about Brandi in her. It’s just ( Read more... )

This weekend was really boring. I really didn’t do all that much. I can’t really remember Saturday, but Sunday I do. I can remember just sitting there in my room, just wanting Brandi to be there, with me, in my arms. Sundays are day out of the week we always make time for each other. I was really hard not being able to have that.

Well since I’m trying not to think about how much I miss Brandi so I decided to have a party over at the trailer. That kind of worked, but not really. I went to take Allegra and Bill back, and then went home. Brandi’s mom called me and gave me the number of the hotel Brandi was staying at. I called her and talked a bit. She seem like she was ( Read more... )