not too promising, but gotta start somewhere.

im giving up again. i cant get anything right.

miss and love ya dad.

bags gone, now lets see how i deal with reality after living in a haze for so many years.

so as of today ive decided, no more pot. Im gonna finish off this last bag then no more. Im 27 and ive got nothin to show for anything ive done. Gonna save some money,  get some new clothes and give my room a much needed cleaning. Time to live life, at least thats the idea hehe.

dunno who reads these anymore but if you know of a good shrink lemme know (seriously).

ive reached a time in my life where i think im ready to go. Im comfortable with the thought and prepared. Now all i need is a catalyst, or some other type of trigger.

I wonder if i'm just being stupid.
I wonder if she'd be interested.

Ok finally found out where and whats behind the Children of Bodom name. *Ahem* In the 60's 3 children were murdered on the lake Bodominjarvi. end *Ahem*
Just figured id put that out for those interested. :)

They say that time heals. Fuckin liars.