i am a tomboy. i always have been...thats not to say i dont adore getting all "prettied" ( i know, i know, not pretty. im well aware i lack the physically attractive traits necessary to be worth a guys time. by time i mean affections.) up for prom/anything else remotely fancy...actually, i love getting all prettied up...but i digress...i never ( Read more... )

doing stupid things is my way of making my life interesting ( Read more... )

your a liar
a ruiner
a fake
a jerk
a rake
a bastard
a rapist
a killer
a destroyer
a snake
a sinner
a taker
a thief
a fool
a pervert
a demander
a pusher
a grasper
A mistake ill never make again

How could i not see the truth
when you held it up right in front of me
and i shrugged you off
placing chains around my neck
took the hands of my demons
wrapped myself snuggly in deception
fell asleep to the sounds of anguish
ringing in my head...

so ...went to shailas...watched movie..."valentine"...facinating plot...no really...cough...

i like my job...

im shaky tonite...i guess i cant really put my thoughts down...its just, i dont know...i wish some things were diffrent...its kinda pointless though...

well...im calmer tonite...yay...its hard to explain why i seem to get so angry for no apparent reason, except to say, the chemicals in my brain, they arent very nice ( Read more... )

im feeling really bitter towards all those people who get life handed to them on a silver platter...they dont really work for anything, and get whatever the fuck they want...freinds, jobs, money...im feeling extremely sorry for myself and i dont fucking care...im cranky and i hate everyone who never has to budge on anything...they get whatever and ( Read more... )

i gave all i could, but you left me so sore...

Its a dull, comfortable agony
That cradles me as I sleep
A manageable aching
That wakes me up at night
Misery that keeps me living
My heart had to break
Before it started to beat
Never felt truly alive
Until everything in me resisted
Life

busy day monday...so yeah...idk...i graduated from high school...whew hew...it hasnt really hit me...jims mom came up and gave me a hug and told me good luck...that was cool...miss her still..its awesome that she still likes me...kinda weird though...who knows...im still unsure about the whole girlfreind, mother relationship thing...i honestly am ( Read more... )