its recently become revealed to me how much of a gap there is maturity level wise, between 17 and 18...junior and senior ( Read more... )

have you every witnessed something you wish you hadnt...because you know it could hurt someone you care about, but you cant say anything, because it isnt your place...or because you risk being not believed...and you had a gut feeling...you knew things werent right, but when it happend, you couldnt believe it almost...times when you hate being right ( Read more... )

i dont like things, slash people right now...i am currently having my heart broken, and all i want to do is run to jim, but i cant, becuase hes gone now...and he hates me, and i fucked things up really bad..i burned bridges and i hate myself for that...i wish i could be like everyone else...i just hate what i am...i dont make sense..i dont ( Read more... )

i was really pissy today...everyone is telling me how crabby ive become...and what a bitch...id like to attribute it to not letting anyone walk all over me...but its quite possible im just a bad person...or its mostly because i have no idea how to feel about graduation...im just really scared ( Read more... )

so im graduating in about two weeks...fantastic, right? cus im sick of all the high school drama, right? sure...theres just this small, ridiculous problem thats been nagging me all year...WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY LIFE? everyone, it seems, but me has a plan for their life...im lucky to have a plan for this weekend...i dont know what ( Read more... )

why is the ferret icon from my last entry crying..hes drunk, not fucking suicidal...fucking mr. ferret

so..ok...for the record...its not that i dont like being touched, as much as i dont understand why anyone would want to touch me..i dont trust peoples motives..as if that helps...im going to go read now...i love my mommy..she bought me socks...

there are times in my life, events that occur, that i wish i could not care about...and people in my life, that i wish i cared diffrently about...i wish i werent so emotional...i wish that i didnt get upset about certain things that are really nonsense...and i really wish i wasnt scared of being touched anymore..because im really scared that im ( Read more... )

prom is so cliche..blah blah, best nite of my life, swoon...but seriously, i had an amazing time...all of my freinds, minus a few, where there...and thats what really made it amazing..theres something extremely amazing about ali helfand dancing to nelly...so yeah...list of the top, oh i dont know, nites of my life...and dont laugh, because although ( Read more... )

people i love...and why i love them (take this as a platonic love...i know no other kind really...thought i was in love...hell no ( Read more... )