this seems to be the start of the third month of out-of-control mood swings and general insanity and crying too much. i am not putting up with it. i am calling my endocrinologist TODAY. damn procrastination all to hell.

ed: of course, she is away for several weeks, and there are no appointments available at all until december, when i have one anyway ( Read more... )

I wasn't tagged by this person, but I do like the meme. So!
Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up one place. Then add your blog to the bottom slot, like so:
Kefla In Disguise
Reality Check
Counting Sheep
Schmutzie's Milkmoney Or Not, Here I Come
Shakespeare Has The Answers

Then, tag 5 people that you ( Read more... )

is it sad that i am not only excited about the spice girls reunion, i would actually like to go to the concert?

ahh, nostalgia...
i love the nineties.

for those who read it, there's a new blog post up!

"I know it's lame to total up the things that millions of folks do every day and label them as "accomplishments." But since I am often extremely hard on myself, I'm going to call freebie on this one."

I identify with this woman, a lot.

i guess i'm through with people
i can just take less and less
...

and i'll give all the lousy credit
to anyone who wants it
just let me lower the bar
let me lower the bar
...

i guess i'm through with people
i say let's call it a wash
clean like a pickup on friday
stubborn like a pile of rocks
...

i don't have to care
i couldn't like you less
...

i could ( Read more... )

everything is exhausting at the moment.

i think i'm exhausted by all the fear i'm carrying around with me. most of it isn't present. it's future fear, fear of things that might happen. fear of failure. fear of loss. most of all, i think, fear of giving up.

i found out yesterday that one of my friends had just gotten something i didn't even know i ( Read more... )

remember that post i wrote a while ago, the post about all the things i wanted? and there were things like "kitten!!" and "two pairs of ridiculously hot boots ( Read more... )

i've started a new blog! i'll be using it predominantly from now on, returning here for snippets. comment if you'd like the url, and i'll let you know!

p.s. i will not be using my name on said blog. just so you know not to go there and shout it from the rooftops!

Four jobs I was really, really bad at:
1. Working at Nando's in the Collins St food court. Do you know how much I just DID NOT CARE? So very much.
2. Nannying two nightmare children in my street. They were the worst children I have ever looked after. EVER.
3. The first time I tried waitressing, (I was about 14) and I poured white wine into a glass ( Read more... )