My friends list here on lj can be counted with one finger. I'm not going to waste my time posting here anymore. I hardly waste time posting anywhere. I should just give up. I post on myspace where I have enough fingers and toes that some should read my journal from time to time. It rips to see the even when I post consistently, a few days later, I ( Read more... )

Just not yet. I'm done with the Shadow persona. I have acheived complete emptyness. Nothing special but it seems to work. If anyone has an idea of my next theme, post it.

I'm really tired of everyone being on myspace. Its not great. ITS NOT EVEN GOOD. If your going to have so many people using your site, for only god knows what reasons, you need to have the server power and the programmers to make it nice. To make it usuable. Every page takes 30 sec. to load and sometimes after that 30 sec, you get an error and it ( Read more... )

I laugh. I try to rub it in. HAHA you have to go to school!!! In truth, one day I lost everything. I no longer have friends anymore. My friends have parted ways and we each become the other's past. I'm the one that is left behind, counting the minutes in an hour. Always thinking what period it is and telling myself that I'm no longer in High School ( Read more... )

Major update is needed. Get over it. This is going to be small. My summer could be said to be going well but also could be failing miserably. I'm now a huge fan of Risk. Awesome game. Any game that takes over 4 hours to play and afterwards I'm ready for more is definately a game I usually like. I've been going to Godspell rehearsals, but they are ( Read more... )

This whole anti-journal thing... it isn't going to last. I have found a new strength. Yes it is God. He gave me so much but I pushed him away when it was taken from me. Now I've had a good talk and I know where my heart is. Tonight I figured out why I drove to church today. I have been blessed without any numerical value that could measure such a ( Read more... )

I am soon going to be in college and I'm basically an adult. It is time for me to cast off my silly journals. I no longer have the desire to update mine. I also no longer desire to read others journals so on and so forth. I have no clue of my ration of posts to comments but I wonder and feel pretty confident I could count them all with fingers at ( Read more... )

..insensetivity due to ignorance of the situation or action taken out of spite to make ME pay for what I did. I wanted to be nice again. I felt I went too far. Today was so outragous, I just don't know what to do or what to say. I know you are clueless, I think. And I qoute, "I give up." A few nice words and minimal but existant conversation would ( Read more... )

A long time ago I knew, I said to myself neither Lauren or I would be able to give up untill all was lost. But still I never knew. So lets end this post quickly with a song ( Read more... )