I am so raw right now-- I feel as if I don't have skin. Nerves exposed. Subject to every sensation- and even pleasure is painful.
And deep below that raw surface is a hollow space. I don't know how to fill it or even what to fill it with.

( Sigh... )

Well... In addition to applying for the Coffin Girlz weekly photo competition (where the winners are chosen by anyone who adds Coffin Girlz and votes), I also sent in an application to be featured as a model on their upcoming website ( Read more... )

Deleted him from my IM list.
Deleted him from my email.
Deleted him from speed-dial.
Deleted him from my phone entirely.
Deleted him from my "Top Friends."
Deleted him from my friends entirely.

Now I just have to figure out how to delete him from my brain.

(Yeah, I know, I've been busy today. Y'all never really hear much from me when life is good. Livejournal is my therapy, I guess ( Read more... )

I've got to regain my grip on the future ( Read more... )

I just set my recovery back a million years. All that detachment I was starting to feel. Yeah, I fucked that up ( Read more... )

I know I'll be over him when the thought of him with someone else doesn't bother me anymore.

I know I'll be over him when I don't desire him anymore.

I know I'll be over him when the sight of him doesn't squeeze my heart.

I know I'll be over him when the painful memories of things we did together become happy again.

I had a really good day yesterday. I got quite a bit accomplished- some lesson plans for the class I'm teaching this summer- school starts tomorrow ( Read more... )

Of what once was-- and isn't.
Of what never was-- and won't be.
Of what might have been...