I know I'm prone to over react in some situations, and perhaps this is another one of those cases. I can't help but feel I need a little perspective here. Here's the low down

- I started dating this guy name Jesse. He's 6 years older than me, and lives in Northern VA. I met him through my LARP. He's a staff member.
- We've been together for a little ( Read more... )

It's official, I'm coming home for good at the end of this semester. I'm hitting up the community college in town with one of my guy friends in the area. I've also got to go job hunting the moment I get home. I can't think of another summer where I just lived off of my parent's.

So that's what's going on there.

Charles and I are doing really well. ( Read more... )

I'm starting to realize that I can't hack university life... which means that I'm moving home this summer, not going back to the Dub, and applying to a community college instead. I figure I can be lost a whole lot cheaper there than I can here. And if all else fails, there's always a degree in business. What've I got to lose? If I'm not happy, I ( Read more... )

Charles and I are probably getting back together...

I'm bracing myself for the lectures I'm undoubtedly going to get from this one...

This is what I want... I hope people can respect that...

Signed,
Standard Deviation.

I'm having dinner with Charles tomorrow...

That is all.

Signed,
Standard Deviation  

I think I’m clinically depressed. It’s scary when you wake up, and wish you wouldn’t ever have to do it again. It’s even more frightening when you have the recurring wish that you could just run, or even worse fade away. What bothers me is when I hear the word suicide, I no longer cringe, I just think... it’s just another alternative.

It bothers me ( Read more... )

 
Last night... something beyond interesting happened to me. I went to Greenville to see my friend Will cause he was having a party. Well, by party it was really just five people on a couch, watching 300. Which was cool, but not really a roaring, out of control, wild and crazy party.

I met Will when Daryl and I first started dating. Will was the one ( Read more... )

Moving... I never got over it. Five years later... it still hurts me to think about it. Why... why won't this feeling go away ( Read more... )

So a while ago... I wrote a blog called "Better together".

I’m starting to realize that that blog was foolish, naive, and written by a girl who has so much dependency on others that it’s borderline pathetic.

I’m still that girl. I’m still dependent... and I was dependent on all the wrong people... the ones that I didn’t really need/want to need.

I ( Read more... )

So I have a best friend, a guy I've been very close to for a long time now. Years even. It's kinda amazing how close Hobbit and I were... we were practically brother and sister. He has always been there for me, and I do mean always. When Wolfe first broke my heart, and all the other times that would follow, he was there ( Read more... )