i don't know how to talk to him and it is really hard and difficult.
i can't say, why would you just leave for the weekend and not mention it to me at all.
why would you let me tell you i wanted to plan something special and then whatever.
why do i let myself get excited over nothing.

And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play ( Read more... )

And though we share a few memories
A couple wrong turns i'll turn a friend to an enemy..
Look..
I got another side I never showed to you
The side where everybody is disposable
See, relationships are never a threat
'Cause I'll erase the history and act like we never met
Become done giving a fuck and done calling...
I got ya ( Read more... )

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

I just wanna feel somethin
Somethin thats a real somethin
That moves me, that proves to me Im still alive
Run my fingers through your fingers, across your face and through your hair
And close my eyes and breathe you in like air
I just wanna feel somethin

ughhh. I think when you get yourself happy about something planned and then those plans ( Read more... )

I wanna start writing again. It kept me really busy and I felt like I could clear my mind a lot better. So much has happened since my last entry. I don't even think I know what my last entry was actually, but what I can say now is that as always another turning point in my life has changed me completely. I moved to Rochester and that was my first ( Read more... )

it's been awhile..

Newest update is that I have a sweet ass apartment on Park Ave. with Milena

Love Love it

she says shes better now
but shes still incomplete
shes trying hard to make her voice sound soft and sweet

Nothing is ever normal..Just when you think there is a little hope left.Wham Bam and shot down like a plane ( Read more... )

It's been awhile but things have been pretty crazy. I learned that being honest can end up really kicking you in the ass and hurting you more. I thought that being honest would help the situation and make things stronger? I was definetly wrong about that one. It made me really re evalute a lot of things that have been going on in my life ( Read more... )

It's been awhile but I got to thinking today

No Matter How right you think yo are..You are always going to second guess yourself and doubt things
life is very ironic like that.You may be happy but in the back of your mind...Could you be happier?

Lots of Shady Business over break.
I had a good time though
I am so sick of the drama
It really isn't EVER going to end
That is pretty much why I hate going home
Hypocrits and ridiculousness..grrr GROW UP