well last night was a total fucking nightmare. i slept and hour & about 45 min. woke up threw up a few times. had to walk 2 work at 9 since no one woke up 2 take me. almost threw up a few times there, tried 2 go home but the boss didn't seem to beleave my blah-ness. mike & josh picked me up we went 2 rachies to eat, i came home changed real fast ( Read more... )

so josh came down last night. haven't seen him in like a year so it was great to have him back. went out 2 eat. we all tried squeezing out his back window which was intresting...rode in the back of his truck the way home then stood up while mike drove which was also intresting, i thought i was gonna freakin die then i sit down and slide from side ( Read more... )

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i slept 3 hours last night which im actually suprised at that, my head was going 23987562 miles an hour and it suc'd.

i feel like crying

i feel like dieing

i feel cheap

i feel used

i feel crushed

i feel wrong

i feel right

i feel guilty

i feel empty

i feel confused

i feel angry

i feel stupid

i feel foolish

i feel low

i feel miserable

i feel hurt

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hmm not too much has happened latly sun. my mom was being a bitch again & wouldn't let me go swimming w/ vik cause i had to "clean my room". shes sucha  whore sometimes.anywho...

mon. i went to work came home, attempted to sleep but that idea failed as usual. hung out w/ joe at night which was kool we haven't hung in forever.went to james' house & ( Read more... )

ok so friday was warped tour. fucking awsome time. last year was probably better but i still had a great time even though i got the shit beat out of me. saw fucking everyone there (except ranbo god damnit!). this kid ed i've known since i was born was kinda stalking me towards the very end which was creepy. and mari0 was there which was exciting, i ( Read more... )

haven't updated in monthes. i've been really tired latly and haven't been in the mood for people. i wish i could spend my life somewhere i could be alone. but wishes never come true so, yea, fuck that. life's in a confusing state right now. im just not sure about the things in my life that should be the most important right now. but yea warped ( Read more... )

i love niki, she makes me giggle & makes my life that much more intresting...lol

lil  hur L ey 0x: im not looking for some dude to put his penis all up on me or anythign
lil  hur L ey 0x: i'm looking for someplace i can chill back and shake what mah mama gave me
NixRox 16: lol ur funny
lil  hur L ey 0x: thanks :-)
NixRox 16: i just want a pole & ill ( Read more... )

this past week suck'd ass. i was grounded since sat. (long story) & it was pure HELL.i haven't done anything for a week, im so bored with  life. i supose i un-grounded myself, took my phone back last night and got on the comp. so this is good i supose? hopefully ill be aloud out tomarrow, that would be highly nice. today's mike's birthday, i don't ( Read more... )

so i made a live journal cause my blurty suc'd ass & never worked right. not much 2 say, 2day suc'd. i told my prarents i was officially quitting dance & they wouldn't let me go 2 the mall because i'm "spoiled & a liar & corrupt my innocent friends" w/e. thats a bunch of bs. my mom annoys me. sometimes i just wish, yea prob. shouldn't go there, but ( Read more... )