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[seadeckgo]

Thanks so much to everyone who has written so far, your support means so much to me. I feel so empty right now... and every time I hear the YIM "ding" that I've got a new message, I come running to see if it is one of you. So thank you

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[mumtaz]

I feel the same way you do about the afterlife. Our souls remain even after our physical bodies have died, and anyone with a pet knows that animals have souls, too. I know my old animal buddies are waiting for me, and I know yours are, too. :) ::hugs::

[seadeckgo]

Thank you hon, your kind words mean so much to me. I saw a t-shirt once that I should have bought, because I've never seen it again. It was in a cat catalog. It had about a dozen different kitties on it, all different colors, each with a halo above its head and a pair of wings on its back. They were all gathered near a golden gate and the caption read "What took you so long?" It makes me cry just to think of it, because that is SO what I hope it's really like.

[invader_zins]

I wasn't eating anyway

I *totally* understand why you don't feel like eating....... but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE make a token effort to get *something* in your belly. At very least, if you don't feel like eating, drink some Gatorade or something. I would hate for anyone else to go through what I've just gone through due to lack of stupid electrolytes.

*more hugs* and I'll miss you at the Fest.

[invader_zins]

Also - very glad you are still going to the Fest. I know it hurts still, but you did everything you could, and by not going, you'll just give yourself time to dwell on it... try and have some fun for me too k? I *so* wish I could still go. Stupid health.

[seadeckgo]

I'm sorry that you can't go too, it's going to be so different without you. I don't feel like I'm ever going to be ready in time, but literally EVERYONE thinks I should still go, so I guess I will. One of the hardest things is going to be leaving my dogs for a week. I know they will be fine and everything, but I'm going to miss them so much. I get a lot of comfort from them, you know? Thank goodness I'll have most of my friends, even though I can't have all of them (you, I mean). It's going to be hard telling people about it. It's like the stray cat I took in - I put an ad in the paper to find him a home and got some calls. I called the first person back and told him I was in MN with my sick horse but I'd call him back as soon as I got back to SF and he could come see the cat. When he came to get the cat today he of course asked about my horse and I had to tell him that he died. That sucked. So, it's going to be hard telling people but I'll find a way to get by, just got to keep putting one foot in front of the other. And

[invader_zins]

Glad you are eating, even if it's just a little.

And remember, you don't have to tell people at BF if you don't want to - there's nothing wrong with keeping to yourself a bit, no rule saying you've got to be the social queen of BF. It's your vacation - if you just want to relax by the pool by yourself, that is totally understandable. IMO, it's the change of scenery, the break from your everyday routine that is the important part of any vacation... BF included... especially having just been through what you've just been through. Gods know I could've used the break myself - even before I found myself in the back of an ambulance.

If my neurologist doesn't take flying away from me too, maybe we can all get together near the holidays if you and Mark go visit his folks. Not quite the same, but sooner than next summer at least.

[kitsunessa]

oh *hugg*
You're absolutely right about what Trouble's doing up there in horsey heaven... I know it.
I don't know what else to say except I really do feel your pain...

[seadeckgo]

Thank you. I really appreciate you taking the time to write so often. It helps make me feel less alone.

[snitter]

Im so sorry I have not posted or that I have not been here for you! I want you to know that EVERYONE from my family sends you there love and sincere sympathies....directly from M he wanted you to know how very sad he was for you. (He must truly care IF he even mentioned it to me to make sure to tell you!) DJ and C were very upset and sad for you...I send you the cyber tears and hugs that they have for you....
Love and miss yah babe...the pain will be replaced in the end, by the special memories and joy you had with him. All animals leave special (paw/hoofprints) on our hearts that make us better for knowing and loving them.
Love and hugs sweetie....your in my prayers!!!