So in regards to that last entry, I have decided to merely limit my alcohols to not whiskey but anything else. So yeah, I'm over the anger at myself, and I have certainly drank since then.
I am really effing mad at myself. So I threw up all over my house and got too wasted for no reason last night. And my mom gave me a lecture and my dad will too. Grrr I'm really fucking mad at myself. I'm an idiot... I know it's totally typical drunk to say, but I'm really not going to drink for a while. GRR!!