perspective is a bitch.

i feel in the mood to "blog."

i want to make a new place to do it... to separate from the past bullshit.

but i don't care enough to sit here for hours and try to create a new username that isn't already taken. ahhh.

this is my official goodbye to livejournal, although if you've been keeping track (which i really hope you haven't) it's been a long time coming. quite honestly, i'm up to paper and a pen. it never talks back. and i can always burn it. besides, it's far more authentic, and creatively stimulating.

peace, lj-land.

FUCK THIS SHIT. if i have to turn my ipod up loud enough to block out the sounds of people having sex then it's on TOO HIGH FOR ME TO SLEEP. im so done with this SO FUCKING DONE I JUST WANT TO SLEEP i feel like shit FUCK THIS.

the fact is either you love me and you trust me
or you dont understand and you have to say otherwise.

there is no "happy medium" here.

but sometimes i think i just try far too hard for shock value.
it's getting a bit better, but all the same, i need to grow out of it quickly.

losing my mind and its SO GOOD.

i'm bored and cranky and my bank account has barely any money in it. so no tattoo. and not much of anything else either. although i treated myself to a coach bag in philly yesterday. yum,. ok so i'm bored:

I like gory movies
I told someone I loved them when I really didn't
I like polka-dots & stripes
I'm wearing a green shirt right now
I still listen ( Read more... )

things are ok. as usual it's the night that gets to me. and also work is really blah..because i just have so much time to let my mind wander.. oh and they play "on the radio", a song off regina's new album on the new gap cd. that blows my mind ( Read more... )

after talking with jo tonight, i realized that perhaps everybody (except for me) has been able to notice and comment on my state of being these past few days. apparently, i look like a wreck. well for the sake of clarifying, i am a wreck. i cant eat, i dont sleep well, and i cant get my mind to think of other things. i'm acting like a fucking girl ( Read more... )

all the crazy bullshit and ridiculous people i deal with
and you think i couldn't handle you?
i could so easily 
and it'd be fabulous.