Every day I wish that the breath I took was my last.

I guess I didn't realize the effect this had on me. I said I was happy. I wanted to be, and I think when I said it to convince others, I was really trying to convince myself. I didn't know how I felt. I was no longer sad ot angry. I didn't know what I was. Now I realize that I'm just nothing. I'm just an empty teared soul. I don't care about ( Read more... )

Today is probably one of the most fun days i have had in such a long time! Ian and Andre came over and it was such a blast. We made the most greatest, most awesome, best fort out of cusions and blankets ever!!!!!!!!! Then we just hung out in it for like three hours ( Read more... )

well I finally get in touch with person who was my best friend. She told me she wasnt coming to nh like have doing the last 3 years, bc she would be uncomfortable w/ my mom This is so dumb. I mean its not like she's going to hang out w/ my mom but with me. Well I guess I should take all the hints. my best friend is breaking up with me ( Read more... )

well today has been quiet. I slept till 2:30 and the only reason I got up was bc my mom came home, and her voice is worse then my alarm clock. I didn't go to bed till 7 am. I stayed up late talking to nick, and then I was reading this book he lent me which is really cool. Lets see I got my cell back now,so I suppose that should be good. Oh and i ( Read more... )

I could handle being alone, I usually loved it, but I cant handle being lonely. I wish I had my friend ( Read more... )

My parents say the "lost" half my gifts.

Angela deserted me

What the fuck is up with zombies in my nightmares?

I hate this whole thing, I just need to get back to my corner

Well not much really has been happening. Things are just things. Today I forgot to read and we had a quiz first period, so i went to Cravens, read the story then i went to english like 7 period instead. There was a fire drill too. I ate my lunch outside lol. Well lets see. I can't wait for xmas because that means I go to the cape over vacation! I'm ( Read more... )

Damn this life sucks....

Last night I had this dream that I kept cutting myself to keep bleeding. I couldn't let it stop...

Well yesterday was a very long day. I don't feel like getting into the details because it's one of those times you just forgive and forget. I'm just happy that I have some really good friends. Danny is one of my best friends. He was there for me yesterday, and I thank him and everyone else very much. FJ came later, and Des was there for me too. I'm ( Read more... )