I can't sleep anymore. Does anyone have any suggested remedies for this hideous sleep deprivation ( Read more... )

Mars Volta was amazing. Chris and I came to the conclusion that we need to mother all of their children. It was a two hour orgasm. Their build ups were phenomenal and his dancing amazing. I think I truely may have found my favorite band. (Bjork is still amazing, but we will consider her as my favorite artist for now). I can't wait for class to end ( Read more... )

I was all ready to take Jade to the Dr.'s office this morning, I even told her that I would wake up at 8:30 so I could take her so she didn't have to walk. So at 8:26 I wake up to an empty room, with Jade's bed made and her not to be in sight ( not even in the bathroom ). I think to myself this is a sort of normal occurance ( i didnt look in the ( Read more... )

I haven't been sleeping properly. I don't know if its the heat or a manifestation of my tumultuous emotions. I keep waking up sore and even more tired. I don't know what to feel right now. I have been doing homework, and getting all requirements done. I suppose i just don't know how to adapt to actually having time to complete things. The sky is ( Read more... )

Why does the mint chip ice cream hate my tummy? I don't want to write essays anymore. School + Life = Lame

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the heat has ushered in a wave of malcontent. why can't i find a reprieve? All the blur that comprises this past weekend seems overshadowed by an overwhelming sense of loss (especially monetarily). What are the point of all of our actions even the causes and actions that constitute our lives are contrived thus having no actual importance. What ( Read more... )

I don't know what to feel anymore. Why do my emotions always fuck with my mind? Good thing i didn't wear mascara.

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I had such a crap-tacular day. Spectacular and crappy but not spectacular becuase of the crappiness, both just were highly prevalent aspects of my day. I had an hour and half test that consisted of reproducing a graph in excel that we weren't taught to do. (Of course the graph has three axes[i know that spelling looks wrong but i looked it up in ( Read more... )

I still feel devious. I have had too much excitment and the boring ways of Encinitas just aren't cutting it. MODEST MOUSE, random Denny's trips, dancing, finals, errands, squeezing every last penny out of every dollar, norms, and home. Oh ecinitas you taunt me with your lovely restaurants and eateries, your amusements and pleasures all attached to ( Read more... )

Waves of sadness run over my body as bare and naked as the unmanned shore. How am I still going? On the futile hopes of narrowly escaping the pain that waits at my door. My story is lacking merit and the whims that allow me peace are ebbing with the tide. Depression for me somehow always ends up at the sea...

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