Mark (my counselor) asked me today if i have EVER been happy. He told me to think back through the years for a few minutes. I didn't answer him. He knew the answer when the tears began running down my cheeks. I feel guilty for being unhappy because i know that I have a way of life that so many people in this world would kill for...and i hate it ( Read more... )

I know that everyone thinks that i should just blow him off. I know that everyone thinks he's an ass hole-and yeah, maybe to a degree they're right. But answer this: wouldn't you be fucked in the head too if you were going to Iraq? Wouldn't lash out at the one person you love the most, and convince yourself you don't need them? the answer to ( Read more... )

smiles are stupid and fake

unhappy birthday to me

I haven't posted in a couple weeks. nothin to really keep updated on other than I'm sad. there's no point in reminding myself of that ( Read more... )

simply missing him ( Read more... )

I guess theres nothing left to say. I asked one last thing of him and he couldn't even give me that. I feel so completely empty and lost. I've kept my composure so well. I don't think there is anyone who has noticed the pain in my eyes. Everything reminds me and i'll never forget. There will never be anything like what we had...never. No guy ( Read more... )

There is nothing to regret....


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fuck you world and your insincere ways of killing someone slowly

but i'm the fucking cold hearted bitch

whatever

we're okay!

we talked

and i fixed things

well...
we fixed things

i will actually sleep tonight

i'm so happy...

im ( Read more... )