Remember all the things we wanted Now all our memories, they're haunted We were always meant to say goodbye Even with our fists held high It never would have worked out right, yeah We were never meant for do or die... I didn't want us to burn out I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop ( Read more... )

two more weeks at res
5 more days of class
3 days of exams
11-14 more sleeps with you
"1 breath from heartbreak"

i'm not ready to not wake up with you every morning.
i'm not ready to not fall asleep in your arms every night
i'm not ready to admit defeat and lose you.

i'm sad
i'm worried
...i'm scared

BULLSHIT.
this is a matter of my pride now
i hate losing.
and i absolutely hate losing to fat ugly chicks.
wanna know what i want?....i want to hurt you.
and more than anything...i want to win.

You didn't like certain things about me, and I was willing to change them for you.
You put me down, and i pushed it aside.
I confronted you about it, you read it a different way and flipped it to make me feel like the bad guy
I let you have your way with me
I compromised who i was to aid in your insecurities.
and i fought so hard every time you would ( Read more... )

"You were very deeply asleep; I didn't miss anything." His eyes gleamed. "The talking came earlier ( Read more... )

"girls, did you hear? the doctors said he only has one month to live"
....then why did he pass away the night you told me that.

r.i.p tito diego
that's one more angel for you, God.

the term "model" is quickly becoming a poisioned word ( Read more... )

back from the eastern caribbean cruise! fucking AMAZING ( Read more... )

Long awaited update.

MY BIRTHDAY
but my birthday was AMAZING!
my manipulative plan to get everyone at my house on time worked...i told them limo leaves at 1030...limo was really sheduled to leave at 11 (:

Predrink was jokes! it involved everyone getting WASTED quick! it also involved taking many shots with my mom and dad! LOL my sister was a kick ( Read more... )

Today is:
08.08.08
& Today I turn 19
I am ONE lucky child (in the Chinese culture at least lol)

So, it's my birthday and I'm at work LOL...stupid Ministry of Health.
I CANNOT wait for tonight though! =D

oh...and Olympic opening ceremonies are today...and guess who's the Canadian flag Bearer....
My future husband: Adam van Koeverden!

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