I don't know exactly what "melancholy" means, but I heard it used a whole bunch in a book once, and it was describing this one chick who was lonely and depressed. Seems fitting.

( I'll tell you right off the bat: if you don't wanna hear the crap that's been going on and the stuff I've been thinking about, don't bother reading. )

And now I feel like crying ( Read more... )

But my computer is in about 6 pieces right now, and seeing as how my dad is in Austria for the next 2 1/2 weeks, I can't be online until after he gets back and fixes it. :( It makes me sad ( Read more... )

But, I wanted to. Thus here I am ( Read more... )

Today was another day. Dez gave me a Lamba (lamb/llama - we can't decide which one) and a Duck stuffed animal this morning! They're so cute! :D Then Andy was in choir this morning... it was so nice to see him. I got to chat with him for a few minutes before the bell, and then he came to FCA with me. I've concluded that I want to go to a charter ( Read more... )

This is fair warning to everyone: Do not upset me. I can usually take it, but I don't think I've ever been this angry in my whole entire life. Much as I try to calm down and let it go, I end up finding out something else which pushes me closer to the edge ( Read more... )

And it's all thanks to Natalie who told me how to put my picha as the background! (It's the one I took of the bridge in Florence, but I made it black and white.)

♥

You know what I don't like? Strange feelings that I can't explain. I could have a relationship if I really wanted one, but something is keeping me from telling him I want to try again. A part of me really does, because I know he's a good person, but that part doesn't outweigh the voice in the back of my head that seems to be saying, 'Just stay put ( Read more... )

So our "weekend away" has a twist - my dad brought his laptop *which royally pissed off my mom* and he let me get online and chat and check my email and all that good stuff. Holy cow is she angry! But yeah anyways ( Read more... )

and there i go being single again, after a weeklong rollercoaster.

i am just not able to handle a relationship at this point in time. and i should have known better.