How has this become my life?

[seeking_joely]

Wow.  I haven't posted in a year and four months (someone pointed this out to me...I didn't even realize it had been so long!), but you would think it was four years based upon how drastic of a turn my life has taken.  Despite me trying over and over to keep this weight off...I have done nothing but gain.  I am now closer to 700 pounds.  What???

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[phrassie]

*hugs*

I'm crying from your post. I can feel your frustration and pain from here! I hope you can find a doctor who will help you!

[seeking_joely]

thank you hun, i hope so as well! thank you for your support. i know i don't get on her much anymore, but i always love reading your updates when i do get on, josie is so adorable!

[crystalheart]

I don't know if this is something you have looked into or not but I recently found out that I'm intolerant to wheat. It was causing sever swelling and pain through my legs, I couldn't walk for the first ten minutes of getting up.

Are we are here for you and will be that ear to listen when you just need to let it out. You can do this.

[seeking_joely]

thank you. i will have to look into that more and see if it makes a difference. i really wish i could stand to go to the store and buy the freshest ingredients and stand to make my meals, it's so hard being my size. i know getting at least a 100 pounds off will really help change things.

[chickyscratches]

Wow, I could have written this. I weigh 431 and I'm having the same problems - I can't even stand long enough to take a shower without a break. Generally, I take a bath or, if I have to shower, I'll sit on the side of the tub. Walking next door completely takes it out of me. Hell, just across the house, even. :( And I'm starting to get the swelling in my ankles/feet if my feet are down too long. Then I have to get into the bed to get it to go down. Mentally, I just want to stay in the bed. Physically I generally end up doing it because it's simply more comfortable

[seeking_joely]

thank you sweetie. i'm so sorry that you are going through the same things as well. oh what i would give to be able to take a bath, i know it would be so much better for me. we have a huge soaking tub, but i'm still too big for it. because of my weight, i'm afraid to sit on the side, so i shower as quickly as possible. if i had the money i would redo my bathroom in my bedroom (it has a shower that i don't even fit in!) and make it with a bench for me to sit, as that would be a huge help as well. i really hate not being able to shower completely.

congrats on the weight loss, even if you've put a little back on. i hear you...i want this so badly, but i guess maybe not badly enough since nothing i do ever seems to work/stick. i hope i can turn that around.

here's to both of us getting where we want to be!!!

[tsuni_night]

You can do this!

I hope the Dr can figure out what's going on. If not I guess it's worth trying stuff out for yourself.

Try something for 30 days and see if it helps. The wheat/gluten option may or may not be it, but I don't think it would hurt to try it. You can get in different carbs by switching to Quinoa, or getting your carbs from veggies/fruits. I'd say don't change too many things at once though so if you do find something that works you know what the change is that helps. I've heard too many corn based products (corn specific) have also caused issues. And corn is in so many things.

For me (and this one about kills me) avoiding fast foods really helps. Even with all calories being equal there is clearly something about the fast food (probably the sodium or inaccurate portion sizes) that can slow or even halt my progress. Could sodium maybe be slowing you down?

I wish you the best of luck, and am glad to hear that you're still fighting. :)

[seeking_joely]

thank you. :)

my doctor is so confused and said she feels like she's failing me, because my blood work comes back perfect and she has no clue what could be causing me to not lose even though I'm eating way less than normal and also taking pills that are supposed to help.

i actually was down six pounds this past week. i let my water intake slip because i hate going to the bathroom at work (for many reasons) and now i'm back to drinking mostly water only and so i think that was a huge help. my swelling has gotten slightly better as well, but i'm still in so much pain.

i will continue to fight, even if i do feel defeated right now.

[noting_nothing]

I cried reading this - I can hear how frustrated and desperate you are feeling.
I don't know what to say - I hope you can find someone to help you.

[seeking_joely]

thank you for just reading and for your support, i really appreciate it.