It's been four years to the date of my last post ( Read more... )

Surprise...I am still alive!

I have no clue if anyone even checks this any longer, but I just wanted to let anyone who does know that I am still alive.  I'm not sure how, but I am.

I'm worse off than I have ever been, but I am taking control and 2018 WILL be my year!  I am sick of just hanging out here on the side of the cliff, slipping ( Read more... )

It's been such a long time since I last updated and so many people have asked if I'm okay or have reached out to let me know they are thinking about me or worried about me and I'm finally done *hiding*.  For me, when things get tough, I tend to go away to deal.  Thank you everyone for your thoughts, prayers, encouraging words...they mean so much to ( Read more... )

I have so much to say, but I don't even know where to start ( Read more... )

This week I saw a doctor who actually deals with super, super morbidly obese people on a daily basis.  Verdict?  I will be dead at 40 if I don't turn this around ( Read more... )

Wow.  I haven't posted in a year and four months (someone pointed this out to me...I didn't even realize it had been so long!), but you would think it was four years based upon how drastic of a turn my life has taken.  Despite me trying over and over to keep this weight off...I have done nothing but gain.  I am now closer to 700 pounds.  What???  ( Read more... )

i've mentioned plenty of times in the past that i don't see myself as *one of those people you see on a TLC show*.  however, i am.  in fact i'm pretty sure they had a show with the same title as my blog post.  yep.  just checked my dvr and there it is.  for some reason i can't bring myself to watch these episodes, even though they have been on ( Read more... )

shortly before the new year i reached my highest weight ever.  a weight i can't even really truly believe, a weight that was completely shocking to me.  627*.  six hundred and twenty seven pounds.  exactly.  never did i think those three numbers would appear on the scale...at least not in that order.  nor did i think it was even remotely possible ( Read more... )

i said i'll be posting more in 2013 and i will be, things have been just a little busy.  i'm hoping tomorrow to post an update and start my journey back to blogging...and of course, getting my life back.

wow, it's been a year and a half since i last updated this thing.  not sure if anyone will read this, since it's been so long, but it's about time i dust this off and start updating again, even if it is only for myself.

so much to say...hopefully this will help me sort it all out.

2013 has to be my year...i don't want to die like this.