moderation & control are more beautiful than i ever imagined...i wish i had learned this earlier

 in a very peaceful but somewhta sad place right now.. to be honest i dont really know what to feel. on one hand i love him, but i recognize myself that it is a different kind of love - a brotherly or platonic love. and yet, i put so much of myself into the romantic aspect of that relationship that i still feel somewhat lost now that that part is ( Read more... )

 why do strong emotions become dull and then fade away... where do they go ( Read more... )

 i know it sounds crazy, but...just let go of everything. let it go ( Read more... )

i know what i am going to do -  and this isnt like the other times i laid out a path for my life, because this is not so much a path as it is...a way of life, that i have come to realize is what i need to do.

im gonna live in the woods, in a house i find abandoned (fairbanks?) or one i build myself. i know i am fully capable of that - its in any ( Read more... )

i just  read something i wrote last summer ( Read more... )

you know what it is -  its karma - its balence

so what *is* consiousness, anyway...?.

1 either the "outside world" is a product of consiousness, like a thought, (which would explain pretty much everything on the subatomic level)

2 or, as is more widely believed, consiousness is somehow a function of the outside world.

3 or, they exist in a reciprical(?) relationship - so there *is an outside world ( Read more... )

 so.....
if i have any kind of nerve ill move to the west coast within the next two years, and be a bum

i feel like my soul has been severed from my body... like its chillin in a pine tree somewhere in the canadIan rockies, in the wilderness, i feel drawn to the forest... i feel like if i dont go ill never be happy ( Read more... )