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Why do you get all the love in the world...
Have tablet, will draw.
That having been said, my DA is flourishing. [[YESTHATSALINKTYVM]]
i feed it at least twice daily with new artsies.
They suck ^.^
Dave got a new job.
$6 an hour at a gasstation.
Full time.
Decent benefits.
It's a job, right?
He starts in two and a half hours.
i stayed up all night again.
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; sigh ;
; sits, sipping her coffee, tapping a purple pen against the desk, staring at the computer screen, mulling over and over in her head what to write ;
Good coffee is like good sex.
Smooth, velvety, all encompassing.
You don't just drink good coffe.
You CONSUME it.
You take it into yourself, letting it fill your senses.
You become one with the coffee.
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What if all the world's inside of your head...
See the animal in his cage that you built
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all
Right where it belongs
[Chorus:]
What if everything around you
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No, you, don't
RUNtse de SHANG-DEE, ching DAIwuhtzo
Merciful God please take me away
WUOshang mayer, maysheen, BYEN shr-to
I will close my ears and my heart and I will be a stone
Please God, make me a stone!
Serenity. The movie. River's line. Whilest she is on Miranda. i don't know what the last line is translated into Chinese, she actually says it in english, i ( Read more... ) -
; yaaaawns ;
Just quick updates ::
[a] Dave didn't get that job. It was a temp agecny. Bleh.
[b] Dave got a call today, He needs to be free tomorrow between 2 and 10 [pm] because He may get called for a job interview. ; squee ;
[c] i feel like shit. Head cold or a sinus infection, one of teh two. And i fucked up my wrist drawing avvie artses for Gaia. x.x;;
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Pardon me while i burn and rise above teh flames...
Currently Dave is in an interview. ; chews fingers, tries not to puke ; i'm so nervous. hofuck am i nervous. And exhausted. And sick. And stressed. ; dies a little inside ; Fuck i'm so stressed. But if Dave gets this job we'll be ok. ; nods ; ; stresses ; i've been not sleeping a whole fuck of a lot lately. And i mean ALOT. Like...the other day i ( Read more... ) -
Thoughtlessness, selfishness, hopelessness, we're hopeless!!!!!!!
Here i am.
2:37am, Wednesday, January 11th, 2006.
Sleepless.
Exhausted.
Listening to "Forget To Remember" by Mudvayne over and over again.
Downloading Hentai on Ares.
On Gaia, modding over BSoP.
Bored.
Flipping through pictures on SuicideGirls.
Thinking i should probably update my vampire freaks page.
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Every Day Is Exactly The Same
Everyday is exactly the same
Everyday is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Everyday is exactly the same
I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I loose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end
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i've given up on caring what people have to say. i just let them say whatever they want. If they walk all over me, so be it. i dont care. i lack the will to make them stop talking. i just sit and listen. And take it, whatever "it" may be. Because i dont care. Let them prattle. It doesnt affect me anymore. They tell me all kinds of shit. And i just ( Read more... ) -
Bleeding and Dreaming
The nightmares are back again. Horrible, vicious, psychotic things. Blood and pain fill my every sleeping moment. So i've stopped sleeping. i stay up until i can no longer handle it, and then sleep for an hour or two. Its hard to keep going this way. But the nightmares...
i cant handle them.
i've been drawing again, too. But everything comes out so ( Read more... )