I closed and pretty much crushed my left hand in the garage door yesterday. It hurts horribly :( I still cant totally feel in my fingertips too. At least its not bruising...yet. And god I hope I dont loose three of my fingernails...that would major league suck ( Read more... )

So remember how I was getting all paranoid about time with Zack and such? Well this weekend we spent all day Friday and Saturday together, and it was amazing and refreshing and now I don't feel so bad at all. I guess the point I was missing was that he misses me too and he feels it too, he just shows it differently. So on Thursday night when he got ( Read more... )

I feel empty and discontent. And sad. And I want to write about it but at the same time I don't ( Read more... )

So today Carolyn graduated. And I had to admit I was jealous at how much fussing everyone did all over an AA. I chose to leave community college and go to a harder school and I feel like shes getting rewarded for taking an easier path. Iono. I was also annoyed at the whole missing Destin with Zack thing and I am ashamed to say I got really bitchy ( Read more... )

I am not feeling bitter today, so this entry should be much more pleasant than most, as the trend seems so far. I guess I was just in a bad mood yesterday about the whole feeling left out and taken for granted, but after talking to my mom about it, and after a very sweet phone call from Zack last night, I feel alot better. Plus Al left me a message ( Read more... )

I am tired. I am drained. I am mentally exhausted and do not know what to do anymore.

Do you ever feel like you get totally taken for granted? I know I'm not perfect, and I know I make mistakes and that I leave people out. But I like to think of myself as one of the few who really do try and be nice to everyone, thank everyone, help everyone feel ( Read more... )

Can I rant again?

I know I have been using and abusing this live journal and a rant method but I've been in a particularly firey mood as of lately...

OK so today my phone got spammed by two people....one brother one sister (I'm sure you will be able to guess who they are very easily)...talking about sodomizing my boyfriend and making sexual ( Read more... )

Well it looks like I won't be going to Destin anymore with Zack. Why? My mom thinks that it is imperative that I see Carolyn get her AA from Valencia... And she pretty much made me feel like a horrible person for wanting to miss it ( Read more... )

I have a whole bunch that I should be doing right now. So I decided what better way to procrastinate than to write in LJ? =D ( Read more... )

I ranted the other day about Zack, and how I felt like I sucked at relationship. But I found out that that totally isnt true ( Read more... )