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here's an interesting little fact
Bad weather forcasts trigger comfort food cravings.
It's been raining here in NJ for over a week now, and
Jello pudding is wiped off of the grocery shelfs. So are
Premimum saltine crackers, and that gooey rice pudding
that comes in little containers.
This afternoon, a tornado watch was in effect.
All hell broke loose in the peanut butter aisle.
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feelling kinda helpless
as my boy and hubby get ready to 'beg' for candy tonight, i feel the old
anxieties and worries creeping up my back and throat.
tell me why, again, people have to trick or treat? sugar is poison. i've got a disease
that's not quitting, no matter what i do to control it. my eyes, my kidneys, my hands, my feet, my toes have all suffered.
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A sticky situation, but it's necessary
My daughter is a big girl. She was born 28 years ago and weighed in at 6'0 even, and by her first birthday, she had tripled her weight to 18 lbs. I was very pleased that whatever her age in her toddler
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life has been good to me so far
I have a mantra I'm practicing as often as I remember to:
Life has been good to me so far.
I have a therapist who is working with me and Chris to smooth out
the bumpiness of our parenting styles with Gabe.
Gabe is working hard at his partial care out patient behavioral and emotional therapy groups. This program meets 5 afternoons a week on weekdays ( Read more... ) -
according to fitday.com
i injested just under 1200 calories yesterday. it wasn't easy not to
scarf down more than that and call it justified. i can fit more in now,
even when i don't want to. ok: i'll just face it: i eat too much. lots of people
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My mom passed away at 5am today.
I've spent the day packing up her belongings from the nursing home, and viewing her body.
She was so quiet, she looked like she was just asleep. The skin on her cheek was so soft, I touched her face and rubbed her arm and I expected to see her open her eyes any moment, and say, oh, I must have drifted off.
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The last few days have been interesting for me.
I think I can see a change in how I'm taking bad news
and stress. What is different, what is difficult, what is hard
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my rebirth day
happy anniversary to me, it's been one year since my
weight loss surgery.
looking back at my journal entries is going to be encouraging, i've come a long way
and although not easy, i'm very relieved.
i do feel lighter, easier to live with myself, more able, more agile.
weight loss surgery is amazing for me.
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baking at 450 degrees in a fithy oven
My mother is failing fast. Thursday, when I went to sit with her, she managed to get herself to the bathroom with great deliberation, but she did it on her own, using the walker. Today, I needed to wheel her to the bathroom from her wheel chair, and help her pull her pants down so she could sit, I had to wipe her, I had to flush for her. My mom ( Read more... ) -
back to reality
It was nice to return to work this morning and be welcomed back
as if I'd been missed. Seven weeks have passed quite quickly: although
lean times financially, I know it's time to get back to work for the paycheck, and for the fact that sitting on my butt this long is not helping my weight loss goal. I've managed to lose only 11 lbs in this time ( Read more... )