So, I think is going to be my last blog, maybe ever. I've sworn off of myspace now. Mostly because i'm not who I want to be anymore. How do you even feel like you have a purpose in life when you lose the one person who means the most to you? Well, I don't. I've officially lost him now. I told him I can't even be friends with him anymore. It's too ( Read more... )

So, what to say, what to say. Well, i'm kind of nuetral right now. I was upset for most of the day. I'm just so frustrated by this whole situation I caused. I don't want him to be with anyone else. I've never felt so fuckin violent in my life. I swear, if I hear about a girl even remotely touching him, her face will be on the pavement. I've never ( Read more... )

So, I got stood up last night. That's not something that really happens to me much, and when it does it usually has a good explanation, like a car accident or something. I talked to him today and his excuse was that he fell asleep and woke up. He felt bad when he realized it was past the time we were supossed to hang out. He wanted to call me but " ( Read more... )

So I have known for a while that I tend to be very naiive about a lot of things. I have way too much faith in people and I am very gullible when they say something to me. Usually, when I meet someone new, they catch onto this very fast and begin thier string of lies. Well, this is no exception. First he tells me a virgin, which I find out is a lie ( Read more... )

So as shitty as things have been, it might start to be looking slighty up. I mean, yesterday was an awesome day. We went to the city to see a Beatles Tribute band called Rain play. We got there like two to three hours early and we were killing time. We ended up seeing Steve Buscemi, in the flesh! It was so cool! We said hi to him on the street like ( Read more... )

I argued with him for a grand total of 4 hours last night. After about an hour of aruging online, and me thinking it was over, he proceeded to call me and argue with me for 3 more hours. It was totally fuckin exhausting, let me tell you. It made me kinda horny though. Haha i'm kind of kidding. Lolz anyways, it wasn't pretty. He said he's going keep ( Read more... )

It wasa little nippy this past Sunday afternoon. It was nice and sunny though, the breeze was what kept me on my toes. I sat in the park, completely absorbed in the book I was reading. I was waiting for Justin. For those of you who didn't know what was going on, let me give you a breif history before I continue. Justin and I have been dating on and ( Read more... )

So, it's been a while since I last updated. Figured i'd do it now while I actually have some time between classes. Things have changed even more drastically. A few days ago, I was just miserable. I was feeling really suicidal and depressed. It's not that being with Chris was bad or anything, I just realized what life would be like without Justin in ( Read more... )

Well, today I went to church and I had an epiphany of sorts. I realized that I should have never even had a decision to make in all this. I should have just been satisfied with what I had. I made that decision already, but I just couldn't let go of the past. Now i've decided and I chose Chris. Some of you may be surprised, seeing as most can tell ( Read more... )

So.....I guess most of you are wondering what the outcome of yesterday was. I was trying to sort everything out. I was happy with Chris but Justin was coming home and I planned to hang out with him last night. So he was supossed to come by my house at 5:30. I waited and waited and waited. Eventually, I went outside and I waited and waited and ( Read more... )