Royally Fucked

[selbee]

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! How can this be the right decision?? I hate this!!! I must be retarded. because I've royally fucked myself over!!! Aaron is the only person I know, the only friend I have near where I live, besides Jack my therapist, and guess what, we're not together anymore. So I'm permanently cooped up in this house with no one to talk to

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[pleasekillmel]

Yeah, it sucks ass, not saying that isn't the case...

but the boyfriend shouldn't be the only friend around anyway. I mean, I know Marion sucks, I do, but what about looking into SOMETHING that could get you meeting more people...i dunno...yoga class, knitting circle...there's gotta be something you're into that's around. I'd go crazy too if was stuck in a house with just my family.

Ending a relationship isn't a mistake if the end result is you are lonely...that just means you need to meet more people/move/write a book about solitute.

[selbee]

I'm really working on getting to know more people in the area. I've applied for jobs that put me in touch with the public and I joined the Biltmore Baptist choir which is amazing. I'm just the slow one the make friends because I'm kinda quiet. All I'm trying to do right now is spend more of my time in Asheville and Charlotte. And yes, I have been keeping a new journal...one that I write in almost every night. It really helps to vent all the anger I have about living at home. You of all people understand how an overbearing mother can drive you crazy.

As for Aaron...it's not that I want to get back together with him...it's that I'm mourning the loss. He and I have hung out since and I'm sure we're still going to be good friends, it's just really raw and painful right now.

[pleasekillmel]

Yeah. it's not like my mother didn't have cause for concern, but seriously, my moving away was the best thing that ever happened to us. We get along really well now!

Sounds like you're taking lots of steps in the right direction!