Quick update...things are better ( Read more... )

Well it's been a while since I journalized, simply because I haven't had much to say. Today I'm venting my neverendling pain ( Read more... )

Again with the happiness!!! I just don't know what has come over me! Wait, yes I do. It's people who make me feel special and beautiful ( Read more... )

It's been a boring Friday night I guess you could say. But tomorrow will be better. I'm driving to the middle of nowhere to visit someone special. :) Can't wait!!! Not going to be a boring weekend!!! When I get back I have lots of work to do...a lot of sucking up to do as usual but it will be worth it. I'm going to paint the town red ( Read more... )

Geez, I'm so tired of being a mess. Mom finally wrote back to my email...not much in it to lift me up though. Apparently my life is still a screw up. Anyway, I'll post Mom's email later so you can read...or so I can read it again ( Read more... )

I know this is long, but it's important to me so please read ( Read more... )

I slept until 11:30 today so I'm feeling pretty lethargic...though I shouldn't with all of the sleep I just got ( Read more... )

Yet another song that speaks to my heart. This one is better than all the others ( Read more... )

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! How can this be the right decision?? I hate this!!! I must be retarded. because I've royally fucked myself over!!! Aaron is the only person I know, the only friend I have near where I live, besides Jack my therapist, and guess what, we're not together anymore. So I'm permanently cooped up in this house with no one to talk to ( Read more... )

Why is it that when I'm hurting the only thing that seems to be able to express my feelings is a song?? Hmmm. This one by Carrie Underwood really speaks to me...in fact the whole album does. It helps me grieve to compare my life to a song so if you don't feel like reading it that's ok...I just needed to write it ( Read more... )