Aaron and I just broke up and I'm a complete mess...swollen eyes...stuffy nose...the works. 3 years is such a long time to just give up. It's like giving up part of who I've become and I don't know what's next. I've never felt this kind of pain before and all I want to do is burst into tears...but there is a song as usual ( Read more... )

What day is it, and in what month ( Read more... )

This is no longer a game...it's a fight for survival.
God help me.

I wish I could quit playing this little game with myself. I wish things would get better so I can finally stop telling myself that eventually things will be better. I'm rapidly losing hope in the things I once believed in and it's not fair. Things have been bad for me for a while and they only seem to be getting worse before they get better. It's ( Read more... )

I hate it here. I'm so unbearably lonely.

I'm trying to put on a happier face today...it's just not turning out to be a very bright day.

I miss all of my friends who have come and now gone...watch over us...Cameron Brendle, Leigh Lane Edwards, and Devin Luther. We miss you.

The truest test for me is whether I can bear the insomnia that comes with being really stressed out. If I can't I usually just break into histeria. Lord, please just let me sleep. I can't do another 4am!!! Histeria is NOT good ( Read more... )

Not much to say today because I haven't really done anything but sit on my ass. I did check out the ESC website for possible job offers though, and got a few good ones to check on tomorrow.

I miss people so much. It's so lonely here.

Ben Harper rocks...I could listen to his guitar all day. Glad Colin is trying to learn my favorite song. "Number Three." Great acoustic...very relaxing. I need to get a guitar...and a piano ( Read more... )

Family meeting tonight...weird...never had one of those before. Mom probably wants to ask why I hate her and why I never want to be around the house. Oh, and she probaby wants to ask Colin the same thing seeing as he can't hardly stand her either. She's been insufferable since we moved because she has no company. She sits around the house reading ( Read more... )