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Balance
Sometimes when I'm crafting and I make a small mistake... I just want to give up. In fact, in the past, I generally have given up and scrapping the project. In the last year or so I've been trying to let go of the perfectionism. I mean, it really is rather childish... almost like a tantrum to just throw it in when it's not exactly what I want. It's ( Read more... ) -
Weight loss... again... new hope
My weight has increasingly become an issue never far from my mind. There have been times when I've sincerely wanted to lose weight. I've made efforts and tried diets. Usually I'm quiet about it, afraid that when I fail I'll look like one of those women always talking about diets, never losing weight. I've always wanted to diet secretly and wow ( Read more... ) -
Insomnia... or Not
Most nights it's the persistent, unrelenting insomnia I can't escape regardless of how exhausted I am or how deeply I long for sleep... then there are nights like tonight when I am so very tired, but I just don't want to sleep. I feel like a little kid, tired, grumpy, and cying "I don't wanna go to bed!" -
Motivating Myself
I will go to walk. I will walk. I have all my clothes out & no good excuses not to. It will feel good to get out there. It's getting hot/humid and I'll be sweaty. It will feel good to take a refreshing shower afterward. Okay, I'm going! -
Little Brighter...
Very gradually I'm having moments in each day when everything is a little brighter. It's hard for me to recognize, but I'm purposefully looking ( Read more... ) -
Timely Gratitude
I'm still very depressed/ overwhelmed. Maybe I need to think about what I'm grateful for...
~ A place I know in my heart is Home
~ Fresh, clean sheets
~ Good books
~ Messes can be cleaned up
~ Memories of the lake
~ Colored pencils, markers, paint, glue
~ Blackeyed Susans
~ Rain
~ Air conditioning on a hot, humid day
~ Open windows on a breezy day
"Hope is ( Read more... ) -
Ick
I messed up my anti-convulsant meds last week & I'm adjusting back to the full dose as of the night before last. I feel like crap this morning-- really nauseous. I told Dad I don't feel well, but I don't think he got the message. He has so many things planned for today-- things that need to be done now. We went to the grocery, brought in and put ( Read more... ) -
Today
I've been outside working on my yard which somewhat resembles a weed jungle. I worked until I couldn't see because the sweat was dripping in my eyes. I'm still a little out of breathe. I didn't walk this morning, but this feels like as much or more exerxcise than I would have got walking. Feelings can be deceptive. Does this count as daily exercise ( Read more... ) -
Father's Day
I didn't really know my dad for the first twenty-something years of my life. Several years ago I came to live with him. I still have struggles. Life is not perfect. But I can say with conviction that these have been the best years of my life. I knew how to stand on my own before I knew my dad. He has taught me that I don't have to stand alone.