1. I just ordered a new dslr camera (so excited)
2. Support of family and friends, even when they don't know how much I'm struggling
3. Graduation in just a few days
4. Even if I don't graduate with honors I'm learning to be proud of how well I've done (that's big for me)
5. I've finished 50 days of the 365 Project and still going strong

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I was in a real funk a couple of weeks ago. I fought it though. I didn't want to get lost in the darkness. I kept reminding myself that everyody struggles at times. On the 18th I received two phonecalls letting me know that my insurance has finally approved the two medications. I had really been worried about that, then I somehow just let go of the ( Read more... )

Today wwas a better day. I'm tired now.

Seizure Sunday, lost most of the day. I made myself go to school yesterday because I had a test. I felt so awful achy, tired, out-of-it & decided to go home after counseling class. Never got to class... the next thing I keow i woke up in the emergency room. Why? I'm not entirely sure. Someone said a family member told paramedics it was worse than ( Read more... )

There are some tasks I have to force myself to do. I have a reading summary due Mon about how people find worth within themselves. I finally settled myself and my computer in for the task and got down to it. I'm so much better than I used to be, but I still struggle with the self-loathing. I struggle with it more when I actually have to think about ( Read more... )

Fear not my faithful LJ, I have not given up ( Read more... )

I lost 5 lbs this week. I was disapointed last week that I'd lost nothing & was preparing myself to be disappointed again, but I was wrong. So glad to be wrong. The negative voice in my head is telling me it's nothing, considering the HUGE amount of weight I have to lose. I'm not listening. In fact I made myself a chart to go on my motivation wall ( Read more... )

I told myself that when I got home from classes I would do an exercise video, rather than take a nap. It was in the schedule. I almost wimped out. I was thinking "I just can't do it" then I realized that my thinking was wrong. I was choosing not to do it. Realizing that made me more accountable. So after I got home & did the necessities, I went to ( Read more... )

I've made it so far in my first day back to my last semester of college. It hasn't been a bad day, but I've been so tired i have to remind myself often it's a good day. Sleepy = grumpy, I guess. Caffeine = better attitude-- to a point. I expect I'll like my classes after I know what to expect. In my first class the prof read "You Are Special" by ( Read more... )

Began this morning realizing that i have none of my go-to, keeps me full cereal. I have bread for toast, and a bit of peanut butter would add protien, but just feeling blah about it. It feels so ridiculous to force myself to eat when I don't feel like it, but the adult part of me recognizes that a) I need to eat with all the meds I take, and b.) I  ( Read more... )