do i ever learn lessons? do i care? most of my life is spent between mediocrity.........hedonism.......and fuckin masochism..........it's all very confusing......i enjoy the fuckin merrry go round ride no matter how many times i puke and no matter how many times the rush makes me panic.....i love life...........sooooooooo much.......and yet i ( Read more... )

ok again.........i dont understand why people have brains and do not spend time using them? why do people think that the world we live in is just fine and dandy....i wish i had an ak 47 so i could shoot all of u....but i doubt ill ever be granted one.......work is ok....i make money and i save it...for a future that contains....i do not know what ( Read more... )

i love punk rock....i went to the naked aggression show and it kicked fuckin ass........i got to sing along on the mic with fuckin patches on the last song.....which happpened to be the cover of kids in america.....which was sweet....cuz it's off their old ass shit...which is waht i have....ummm we met this cool ass homeless guy named lucas and we ( Read more... )

im very confused. im frustrated about my life..........uhhh i feel like im trapped.......and i HATe it....it's been a really really long time since ive disliked my life..........i MISS everything about my former life....even the things i hated at that time....i miss even my self-destruction........although that continues to be a constant in my ( Read more... )

lately ive had a feeling of impending doom....im very fucked up and moody....very close to the breaking point....im really annoyed that i understand that i am nothing in life and that no one is...and i understand like the physics of alot of things....and yet i still cant fuckin feel good....errrrrrrrrrrrrr...stupid sociey stupid world...stupid ( Read more... )

for once in my life id like to be happy for more than a month.......there's always something....my new thing is that i want to write essays....social commentaries....social theory articles etc....actually theyd be more like articles....it's not that hard...i dont want to really get published anywhere big...but that is the other problem...where ( Read more... )

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i hate the police state that i live in...i hate all rules...and laws....i dont need them....fuuuuck....i hate the state more than anything....however...i want to help people....so this either requires using the states assistance...or finding capital on my own....which begins my other problem of hating money...i hate the system...and capitalism.... ( Read more... )

fuck this country and it's bullshit....this country sucks....drive ur cars...enjoy ur possessions....DIE FUCKERS....what a great world power we are when we cant fix shit in our own fuckin country....americans know shit about humanity...or universality....what the fuck is wrong with people? meh....oh well....just another day...

id like to be a serial killer....a serial killer of powerful people...theyre not human to me....plus i believe morality is conventional...i dont have any emotional attachment to them....hmm this is interesting...murder seems completely rational to me....i think suffering is fuct....i dont think just shooting someone in the head really makes them ( Read more... )