Well I was just reading some of my journal and I can happily say that I have pretty much gotten over Brad's death and all that. It's not that I forgot him, but I guess I have excepted it and I am moving on with my life. Things have changed a little, I was finally laid off after my decade at Danka. I am getting unemployment and going back to school ( Read more... )

Well I've gone to the Castle three weekends in a row. I really missed going there all of the time. It's kinda strange going there and seeing mostly new faces, a few old ones too, but none of the friends I used to have there go anymore, or at least I haven't seen them in these last couple of weeks. I did meet someone there last night who I've seen ( Read more... )

Well I saw that pond-scum person Edward or Joey or Country or whatever that piece of crap is calling himself. He walked right up to my car while I was waiting for my prescription in the pharmacy drive through (after we left our Christmas Luncheon at the Olive Garden). I snapped a picture of him as he was walking up to my car and then he walked past ( Read more... )

Well today is Brad's Birthday and also Joseph. I guess it's just Joseph's day now (he is 25 I think). . . I still miss My Brad (My Beloved) the only man I ever married and I think I always will miss him. It is easier to miss him now that he is really gone, rather than when he was just gone from my life and Zeric. Well I am trying to quit smoking ( Read more... )

Well today I gave two male kittens to Terry at work, she is keeping one and giving the other to her neighbor. Sometime saying goodbye is so hard, even when you know from the beginning that you’re going to. I tried so hard not to get too attached, but alas I still had tears. I know they are going to have good homes, but I know they will miss us and ( Read more... )

Well today I have a lot of things on my mind, I need to make sure Albert sends his letter in regards to Carrie requesting an increase in her Child support. I am going to make sure there is a Paternity test taken. I am sure that will piss her off, but it should be done, because if Dominick is not Albert’s kid, then he doesn’t need to pay her ( Read more... )

There is this guy at work, who I’ve been waiting for him talk to me for about 5 years. In that time we each have been divorced and been single on and off. I know a lot about him. I feel kinda bad that I know so much, because he probably doesn’t even have a clue who I am. Well its kinda funny, when I first noticed him, I was younger than the age I ( Read more... )

Well Brad’s ashes came today. I guess I am glad that Zeric will get some. He doesn’t really seam to care too much about it now, but later I think he will be happy that he has some. Laura asked my mother to send her the bulk of Brad’s ashes so she can scatter them in California in some river. My mother also told me that she sent Laura money to send ( Read more... )

Well today I had a private meeting with Al from Hospice this morning before work. I guess things are going better. I am dealing with my own issues of abandonment. Not just the physical abandonment of Brad leaving our Family behind as he sought out the legalized California and his dream of living for free (squatting) and getting government pot and ( Read more... )

For the love that Brad gave me in the beginning ( Read more... )