wow . . i haven`t been here in a while . . & i bet that no one even reads this -- so i`ll update for myself . . a lot has changed since i`ve last written here . . & i really do mean a lot . . the boy from previous entries is gone . . & i don`t know if i can say i`m glad . . everyday i wonder what would have happened if i paid no mind to her and ( Read more... )

at first you think it`s great you`re talking to him again,
but then you start talking about things that happened before;
bringing back old memories & then you realize how much
you really miss him. & then you get to thinking you really
want him back but then you remember he doesn`t need
you like you need him.. & it HURTSz

i love me some andrea de sa. ♥
wednesday makes one month that brian left :(
come back soon & safe beb ♥.

brian went to iraq today. baby i love you and i`m gonna wait for you till forever until you come back i miss you already. why`d you do this to me?! god man i can`t wait until we`re together again.. until then i`ll pray for you every night.. i love you & i miss you <|3

whenever i say "oh i`m gonna leave this house" nobody ever believes me, well you better start. because i shouldn`t be doubted. if my mom does one more thing. i`m out and i`ve never been so serious in my entire fucking life. no one ever believes me "oh she doesn't have the courage or the heart to do that." believe me bitches. i do, and i will. when ( Read more... )

he gives me butterflies <3

today was the best day. i saw my baby andrea, saw my baby paula, and i chilled with my boo <3. today couldn't have gotten any better. i love you all!! carol,PAULA,andrea,and my boo <3

rumors. i hate them, i don't know what to believe anymore & i'm too scared to get hurt if i trust him. WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS GOTTA BUTT INTO MY BUSINESS?! WHY CAN'T THEY LET ME BE HAPPY?! IS THAT SOO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK FOR. <|3

i love my piglet <3

Hi. I haven't updated. Things have been going alright. Christmas was okay, i got my chain, & the best gift-he told me he likes me. I was speechless. It's okay though, because he knows how I feel about him. He called me today, he was going to try & come over. His cousin was acting retarded, so he couldn't come. He bought me a gift :]. It's piglet. I ( Read more... )