i have to strategically pick the words i use.
the tone i use them in.
their timing.
placement.
and context.

i have to remember every memory.
every feeling during them.
every thought i had.
every move i made.

i have to be in your mind.
to decided how to preceive what comes out of my mouth.
how you will respond.
how you will retaliate.

i have to think fast.
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so when i was younger i always thought of crushes as being totally in love ( Read more... )

so... i cant help but think that my appearance drives people away ( Read more... )

i feel like severing all ties.
because as we all know im a wishful thinker with the worst intentions.
ive started off this week in the worst way possible.
and now im nothing but a walking object of stress.
im begging for a way to gracefully bow out and say goodnight.because i cant control myself anymore ( Read more... )

we're coming up on the first anniversary of our falling out ( Read more... )

jazzie baby... i love you.
its wierd how we became better friends after you left..
badly organized on our part id say.
youre the coolest.
cooler than me i like to think.
but totally great! dont you think its wierd how youre friends make you ( Read more... )

im trapped inside this body that no one wants ( Read more... )

i am definately living the prologue to my life ( Read more... )

im okay today.
im not happy.
im not sad.
im just okay.

the aching in my heart has lessened.
the heavy feeling my eyes have has eased up.
the tears i feel welling up in my eyes dont fall.
so im okay today.

dying my hair ( Read more... )