HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!

is that better? lol

Today, I say I will
Learn to heal
Let my walls break their seal

Today, I give
All I hold inside of me
Cry out what I hide so dear.

Today, I beat only for you...

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. ( Read more... )

A mind is a wounderous thing.
Thoughts and pictures swim together.
Weaving in, out and around each other.
Coming so close but never meeting. 
Not wanting to stop.
Who am I?
What am I doing?
Love? What is this?
Memories.
Fears.
Friendship? No. This doesn't exist.
Ideas. 
Creations.
When will they come together?
Jumbled, scrambled thoughts.
Always jumping back and ( Read more... )

 I was born and raised in sweet home Alabama. 
I'm a southern belle to the core. 
Without music, I would probably go insane. 
I am completly in LOVE with any and all types of art. 
I have an exteremly artistic side that I rarely show. 
I think books are the best television ever. 
At one point in my life, I was a writer. 
I am a published poet. 
I'm ( Read more... )

 Life has seemed so unreal latley. So many things are happening and time is literally flying. I have learned alot about myself in the past few months and some of it I really don't like. Either my perseptions of things are extremly distorted or the way people perseve me is truly gospel. I have never thought or myself as a heartless person or one ( Read more... )

i just don't get it.

why is it that i get the one thing that i have been wishing for for months back and all i can do is shy away?

why am i letting this get to me so bad?

why can't i just trust in what he says and move forward?

why can't i shake this?

of course he doesn't want me to be like that. other wise he would have never asked me to take him ( Read more... )

NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?!?!?! where did she get all of those LIES?!?!?!?! NICKI is better than ME because "she treats him like a person and not her perosonal slave" EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?!?! what have i EVER done that would make her say and BELIEVE any of that?!?!?!?! she's making it out to where i'm this cold hearted bitch and he's just a innocent angel who's ( Read more... )

Brandon,

Where do I begin? This is to be our very last night together and I can honestly say that I have extremly mixed emotions about it. I can not believe that we are really over. It all just seems so surreal, like it shouldn't be happening. You have not only been my lover, but my very BEST friend. We have been through so much together. We've had ( Read more... )

okso shit hit the fan today. my bitchy ass roommate decided that she would completely fuck up my world by telling my mom all kinds of shit about me. it just wasn't coool. now my mother hates me well not really hate just highly pissed. she said alot of things and called me many names that was really uncalled for. i dunno i'm just really upset and i ( Read more... )