havent been on lj for about 2 months been to busy. college is getting stressful and im sick so i dont wanna deal with any of it. Ive been learning stuff about myself and the world and everything else. I cant seem to come up with anything that i really believe in or want to do with my life and its literally driving me crazy. I think i need some kind ( Read more... )

today was interesting to say the least wasnt bad and wasnt good. I got into a fight with my mom because i was mad at her for convincing me to go so far away from home where i know noone but i began to think that ive pretty much become what ive wanted in life. Im a kind person who helps people all the time even if i dont know them. Im pretty fun to ( Read more... )

i think me and my friend dan have switched personalities a bit. When I first met him he was the most confident and self assured person i had ever met and I was a shy kid who hated talking to people. Now im alot more confident and sure of myself and dont give a shit about wat anyone thinks of me and he seems to have gotten more doubtful of himself. ( Read more... )

im feeling sick i think im over doing it with exercising and working out. Idk why i work so damn hard but its begining to take its toll im always tired and feel weak idk why i need to sleep or something. Other then that my days been pretty good though. Kinda boring cuz i didnt have many classes and didnt feel like studying. The cleaning lady isnt ( Read more... )

today i woke up at 6 to go to rotc where we ran a shit load and did pushups for awhile. I think im getting better at running even though my ribs still hurt like hell when I run. As for pushups I already rock at those. I didnt have class till 12:30 which was good cuz i got to sleep. I ate lunch with Kim Shelby and Dave and i learned the old ladies ( Read more... )

i dont know why i get depressed sometimes. My life is pretty good. Its got some problems but theres alot of good things in it. I think the reason sometimes i get really depressed is because Im always thinking about things and never have any anwsers and Because of it theres a whole mix of emotions that I cant deal with. I think thats the way it is ( Read more... )

I hear the voices ( Read more... )

These are some quotes from my favorite book "The Catcher in The Rye ( Read more... )

im feeling lonely right now theres no one around and there wont be anyone for the whole weekend which fucken sux. I havent been sleeping for a while i dont know why and I wish I could get the hell out of here. I dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. I never fit in anywhere. Im a damn nice person but I never belong anywhere and in the end im ( Read more... )

so ive been having some weird dreams for awhile there all kind of the same. Ill be back in Brewster high school and some kids I knew will try picking a fight with me and I wont be able to fight back. Ill try as hard as I can but find myself losing and getting my ass kicked. Then I see my dad and Ill be saying to him "Im not strong enough I cant win ( Read more... )