I fucked up, but I'm not going to let it ruin me. I loved two people at the same time, and it ripped me apart. I have my reasons for what I have done, and I know I have torn the fuck out of Dan's heart and soul, yet he has done the same to me. We feel each other's pain, but we just don't have any time to talk to each other ( Read more... )

I thought Saturday night I felt like shit.

Now I really want to die.

All love is lost...
You think I lied...

"Crashing Around You" by Machine HeadI am your nightmares, true scares ( Read more... )

Everyone is treating me differently. More like... They're not talking to me. Badger, Nic, and Phill are talking to me. Nic, barely. Badger, barely. You know what's funny about all of this? This is all over the break up with Dan and I. I'm sure all of you would like to know why I broke up with him. Okay, let me show you my little list here ( Read more... )

I feel intense anger right now. So, some of you may be wondering about my last post. I haven't said much lately, or made a post that really explained things. You know, I had a great day. I got to spend it with two of my best friends, Doug and Nic, and then I also got to spend it with Phill. I had a great time, but as soon as Nic dropped me off, and ( Read more... )

I am waiting for everyone in my house to go to bed.

I'm going to take some scissors and jam it into my wrists and I'm going to laugh!

Then I am going to take safety pins and rip out my veins!

It will be pretty. I promise! I promise it will be the best you have seen from me.

I left my home ( Read more... )

I wish he would. He says things look bleak for him, and I tell him he knows he will turn around, like another girl, and everything will be fine. He denies this. How could one possibly show another their love? Ha... He should just look back on all of the things I have done for him, but he hasn't thought about that.

I leave you with a good song.

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So I had some female problems and left school today ( Read more... )

Today at school was okay. I mean, it was school... How worse can it get? ::Ponders this.:: Anyway... Dan and I got into a tiff at lunch, so we wrote each other some notes. We tried talking about it between 4th and 5th hour, but Courtney, Pippey, Sam, and some other people ran over. I said, "I'm walking to class," and Pippey said something to me as ( Read more... )

So I am writing a new story.

I like apples.

I like hair gel that smells like apples.