I have school. I have work. I have an empty shell of a social life that I have a desperate hunger to fill and make real. I'm sitting in my room thinking, while my roommates and their loved ones are in the next room having meaningful, light-hearted conversations that I just can't quite grasp the ability to carry ( Read more... )

Just forget everything, and focus on stuff that matters, like IEEE standard papers for Engineering courses.

I've been taking Prozac for a while, and it works mostly. However, it still doesn't do anything about how sad I become when I think of how I only know being single. The closest I've ever been to getting a girlfriend was earlier this year, at the age of 24. I'm meeting 17 year olds who've been in 3 year relationships, have more sex in a month than ( Read more... )

I think I just screwed up on a level that I cannot recover from. Like, I can't go to my friends in Baton Rouge anymore if they know of this, and that's pretty much the only people I really go to when I have problems.

So. Lots of things happened. The person I referred to in my previous post tried to kill herself. She was rushed to the hospital that night and is going to be okay ( Read more... )

So, she's in a relationship and it's complicated, according to facebook. This is one of the women that I decided to approach out of the blue because she was so blasted pretty I just needed to know her. So, I already knew that she wasn't interested. She expressed that she was too immature for a relationship (2 weeks before today), and said I ( Read more... )

I wish I didn't feel so very embarrassed when I try to communicate what's bothering me to people.

( TMILAWL )

I think I may have managed to capture someone's attention. I am probably reading too far in to it, I am possibly getting my hopes way up, but I do so hope that she likes me. She is oh so pretty, and unique, and funny, and interesting. I hope she thinks of me half as much as I think of her.

Ya know, I can be a little pathetic sometimes. I should probably do something about that.