Comments | serawench: I am mentally ill (unlocked)

serawench

I am mentally ill (unlocked)

Sep 01, 2009 15:52

I am 31. I have been unable to work since March of 2008, when I had a breakdown at work. Since then, I've had to change doctors, when the first one treated me like an idiot, laughed at me, and generally was completely unprofessional. I've attended a program that was good when I was in it, but left me with no followup. When that ended in August of ( Read more... )

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rhiannon_ruby September 2 2009, 00:13:38 UTC

*Hugs*

You are so brave to put this all out here. I have had a diagnosis of "Major Depression" for some time now. I am not seeing anyone because even when I did, no one can really tell me what the heck it all means.

You really deserve all the love and support that you can get, and I am sad that your family can't give that to you.

arwens_dad September 2 2009, 00:17:03 UTC

Well said. I know you're smart, and you know I've told you that... but mental illness isn't about smart and not smart, it's about real diseases.

For a little while now I've been thinking that one of the major differences between conservative and more liberal people is that conservatives don't really believe mental illness exists. They think, as you said, that everyone with any mental or emotional disorder should just be able to "suck it up" and "learn to think differently", which is of course a crock of shit like trying to wish away cancer. They also believe it is merely bleeding heart liberals who think people with mental or emotional disorders need support: after all, aren't they trying to steal precious tax dollars? *bleah*

I wish you well, Heather. I can't be as supportive as I wish to, but I try a bit.

katido September 2 2009, 02:27:33 UTC

I wish you all the best in fighting this. I'm pulling for you! I just wish I could be there to offer real-life support, but just know I'm thinking good thoughts for you.

siara79 September 2 2009, 19:15:44 UTC

*hugs*

As a fellow BPD/major depression sufferer I completely agree with this. I've had people tell me to suck it up and get over it, and it took nearly 8 years for my husband to realize that when I lash out in anger, it's usually a combination of trying to hurt myself (by shoving him away) and even more anger because I KNOW it's irrational but I can't control it. I'm trying Buspar right now to help keep me calm, and it seems to work.. so far.

Meh, this isn't a discussion of me.. but just saying I sympathize (I've been at that point before - living in squalor, having trouble even taking a shower, etc) and.. I've missed you. *hugs*

some thoughts cityrah September 3 2009, 03:49:41 UTC

Ah, I meant to ask you about that- I overheard you reply "just.. working" to someone who asked you what you've been up to after your dad's memorial service ( ... )

Re: some thoughts serawench September 3 2009, 23:16:14 UTC

First, the reason I don't get specific is two-fold. 1, I don't want anyone else to carry around the horror of what I live with - sadistic, cruel sexual abuse from ages 6-8; rape at 14; assault by a cousin; rape at 21 and 28; plus multiple other things - like stalking, harrassment and general maltreatment. 2, retelling the abuse can be re-traumazing if I am not prepared for it, and I most definitely am not prepared for it - which is why the program at the sexual assault centre was not the best choice for me ( ... )