I have not written here in a while. But then, while checking my email this morning I saw a comment here by a friend and was inspired to return to the fold. I have always spread my blogging over various sites, preferring not to reveal all of myself on one particular blog, but this one somehow feels more private. So, with that, here I am ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've written - a lot has been happening with a lot of upset and drama, but last week Matt and I managed to get away to Mousehole, Cornwall for a week's holiday. It was very rejuvenating, we had a lot of fun and I remembered exactly what it was about the place that draws me there. So, with a renewed sense of inspiration and ( Read more... )

What do you say when something happens that changes the way you feel about everything, makes you feel unsafe in the world you live in, and shakes you to the core? What do you do, when that happens to someone very close to you, and you have to support them through it? How do you know when it's ok to talk, and when to stay silent and supportive? I ( Read more... )

I always seem to be trying to sort out my life. It's either my weight, or my insecurities, or my image, or my lack of self-esteem. And as I sit here writing this, I wonder what makes me feel this way. Am I so repulsive that I need to be completely made-over? Why am I always so unhappy with myself? Often I sit and wonder why I'm always unhappy with ( Read more... )

The weather was great today, unfortunately I was working so I didn't really get to make the most of it. However, I did enjoy the drive home immensely. Had the sunroof open and the window down so I got every sensation and scent of the air on the journey. Currently listening to some bellydance beats. I'm performing in my group's hafla in a couple of ( Read more... )

For ages now I have felt really unattractive. I know a lot of women feel like that, but for me it's been magnified a lot due to the fact that I am struggling to lose weight again. But I had a chat with Matt about it the other night and he said that I am beautiful in my own way and I suppose that I'm frightened of that. Having never seen myself as ( Read more... )

Wales won the Six Nations, and in spectacular fashion as well, winning four out of four matches. I'm really excited and so proud of our boys for their fabulous achievement. I bet Cardiff is a crazy place to be tonight. I wouldn't say I'm an ardent supporter of any particular sport, but I do have a soft spot in my heart for rugby. It's probably ( Read more... )

I went back to Slimming World today. The last couple of months I've been so lazy and haven't been motivated, resulting in me putting 16lb back on. Never mind, that's all behind me now and I am 100% back into the plan. I sat there in a different group (morning instead of evening) and stayed to Image Therapy, and it really did feel like a new start. ( Read more... )

and thankfully it's my day off, so I don't have the Monday blues. Rather, I am reflecting on the fabulous weekend I've spent with Matt. Not that we did anything particularly special. We didn't go out to a posh restaurant or go through a deep and meaningful conversation or anything, but this weekend I have noticed the little things. The smiles that ( Read more... )

I spent the day with Matt yesterday - we sorted out some stuff that we had to do in town first, and then drove down to Swansea to visit the National Waterfront Museum. It was pretty interesting, some great exhibits and a really good interactive setup. There were a lot of displays where you could control what you watched or you could choose from a ( Read more... )