And so it is, just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, most of the time. Because the truth is that life does go on, most of the time, no matter what, it's a basic survival instinct. It's time to let go, say good-bye. The whole world does it. We came back to school today. Two weeks ago we were consumed by grief over Lucien, but now, ( Read more... )

I saw you in the distance today. You were outside of Trader Joe's having a smoke. Everything reminds me of you. On Friday I heard about a five year old hitchhiking, and the first thing I thought was how hard it would make you laugh. But I didn't call you or text or anything, because this time you hurt me far too much. And like I said, everywhere I ( Read more... )

I don't know what I would do without you guys. Thank you for being there and reminding me how to smile. I love you so much.

Freud said that sometimes a cigar is just a cigar, but hot chocolate and lemon scones are never just hot chocolate and lemon scones:)

Dear Lucy ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. The social worker said that I don't let people see when I'm sad anymore, that I need to pay more attention to myself and deal with things more. I thought I was fine. I know it was a rough couple of days, but I'd been pretty much fine since the summer. And now I'm not okay again, for the second time in a week. And I don't want to deal ( Read more... )

It didn't hurt to find your shirt. It doesn't hurt to see your boxers and sunglasses and mix cd everyday. It didn't hurt when you didn't return my call. But for some reason, that image of you drunk, half asleep in a chair with a cigarette in your fingers, that made my heart ache. Maybe it hurt so much because that's you without me. That's what you' ( Read more... )

So I take a leap of faith and all it does is come back and bite me in the ass.

Life in the twenty-first century is so cynical. I don't see why we can't sometimes just see things for how wonderful they are and just be insanely happy. If I can, why can't the rest of the world?

yonahsc: i gtg ( Read more... )