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[serendipity0184]

ok so... i am confused as hell

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[standingtall303]

I wont bother you any longer, even though I missed you practically all day long. Yeah, I'm sorry I cant be this man without the bullshit. I'm just not trying to make a relationship better when the other person sees no faults in their self, it's pointless. But god, I love you so...I know it's hard to believe. I missed the good times we had (even though I never feel I'm great enough for you)
The more I open my eyes, the more I realize...that I was far to tough on this girl and now I have to pay for it. The sad thing within all of this is...I know things could be great in the future. but the future is probably dead now....I have treated you badly...I should pay for it. but to lose you would be the ultimate loss...my love, my friend, and the mommy. you've taught me a lot which I'm thankful for, very thankful. I'm just sad you would not let me do the same... Forever love, Jonathan

p.s. "as my best friend holds her breath"

"but i......no that......when we.....i can't...."

[serendipity0184]

jonathan, when have you tried to teach me something? and why do you say i never let you? and now your seeing your best friend as not the most perfect girl in the world anymore. i know i'm not perfect and i warned you that from the begining and you ignored me like you do most times. it hurts me when i try to talk to you and you change the subject... i think the only way for me to come to some kind of conclusion is just to keep rambling unintruded.. you know like.. if i am alone.. and have no one to interupt my train of thought.. my brain works so weird.. i say one thing whch leads me to another and if you always butt in when i say ONE thing then i never finish my thought you just send me on another path and when your mean, i am already aggitated from not being able to finish my thought so i lash out.. and then you make fun of me for saying stuff like ...so..i....know...that...you.......and its all because you were like "blah blah blah" and i'm like "let me finish" and you say "well ok fine do it then i just wanted to say blah blah blah

Re: "but i......no that......when we.....i can't...."

[standingtall303]

But I am that way! And I'm sorry for making fun of you... :( I really regret it the more I realize that it actually does hurt you. I guess I thought you were super tough...and I will try to mention it to you in a nice way next time, I will. You're not awful at all, you're my sweet sexy feminine kitty cat. We can get over all the bull, I know we can. Head up high today, it's your boys birthday. I hope you guys have fun today! Give him a huge hug from "dada," I hope to see him soon, and I will! :) Both of my pride and joys. I love you SLD! Here I go!! cant stop me...wanna know why? because I'm on the computer, you cant shove your hand in my mouth! I love you Stefani Louise Davis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA! bye sweetiemunchinlovesalotdolphinpetter! HAHA!!!!