I was watching Law and Order, and one of the officers leaves the show at the end. She tells the person that she loves (also an officer) that she loves him and always will, but she must leave. Otherwise, she'll self-destruct, and she doesn't want the person that she loves to see that happen. I envision myself doing this to you one day. And the ( Read more... )

The events at the winery today were hilarious. Sarah said, "If I were a mouse, I would totally live here." I went to the loo, and I hear her scream, "Suzie, I found the mouse." Hahaha. I insisted that we let the mouse live, so we walked through the vines to take him into the woods. She talked to him on the way, telling him that I saved him and ( Read more... )

The other day my roommate asks me to go outside for her. I look at her and say, "It's cold." Without skipping a beat, she says, "You're 27." Clearly my age changes the temperature outside ( Read more... )

It's occurred to me that apparently I want a companion. I want someone to do life with me. I was perfectly fine being alone a month ago, and then Mitchell has to walk into my life and sweep me off my feet. And now, although he said he genuinely liked me, apparently he's over it already. I feel rejected, and I hate it. I was perfectly fine a ( Read more... )

I'm copying and pasting this because it's how I feel. I'm pretty sure I'm bat shit crazy for feeling this way so soon, but it is what it is, I guess. You told me it takes eight seconds to fall in love with someone. If that's true, then it makes this a little less creepy ( Read more... )

Dearest darling Mitchell: I don't want to be mad or upset or sad. My pastor from GA taught us that pain is all-consuming, and when you're hurt, it makes you selfish, and you can't think of anything but the pain that you feel. So that's why when I'm upset, I'm upset, and I can't really do anything to change that. However, the woman that I was a ( Read more... )

You told me I was going to change your life. If there's one thing you learn from me, I want it to be that you learn to live life without fear. You're going to get hurt on multiple occasions in your life; it's inevitable. However, if you live life trying to refrain from getting hurt, you're not really living. You can't miss out on what could be ( Read more... )

M.B. came over for a little bit. It's weird not being able to hold his hand or kiss him or anything. I don't know how to just cut it off once things have gotten started. I'll have to really work on this, but I prefer to have him in my life as a friend if that's all he wants. It's just frustrating. He likes me, and I like him, so I don't see ( Read more... )

I really hope M.B. comes to spend some time with me today for Christmas. All I want for Christmas is to spend some time with him.

Dear M.B ( Read more... )