Tonight my baby girl won't sleep with me. Tonight she will be alone and scared. Tonight she will be in a strange place where she doesn't know anyone or anything. Today I had to say goodbye to my baby girl. When I picked her up one last time she knew. She knew that it would be the last time I would hold her. She pleaded with me. They way she ( Read more... )

my heart is all busted to smytherines. I thought i was done with all of this. I wish i was. But I guess I just put a bandaid on the problem with a bunch of vicodin...and now the bandaid has come off and the vicodin is gone and i still have to deal with it. I'm so angry and hurt. I feel like i shouldn't be, but i am. I wanted to go out to the ( Read more... )

I was just about floored when I found out that Zack was back from Iraq. He wasn't supposed to come back until after I left. This was another great reason for joining the military. I just wasn't ready to see him and this way I would be gone before he got back and after my enlistment was up chances are I'd never see him again. He got back early ( Read more... )

Friday night I met several interesting fellas, thanks to Bri. She dragged me out with her even though i was being a pansy and didn't want to go. I had a blast and I'm glad I went. There was a fella inparticular that I met. He is getting on a plane right now and going back to Japan. He is a marine of course. He is the nicest guy I've met in a ( Read more... )

I'm joining the army. I was going to spare my mother and only do the reserves till she got comfortable with the idea then go full time, but instead i'm going to follow her advice and go straight in. Well not exactly following her advice. She doesn't want me do to do it. She told me she didn't think a lab tec would be a good thing for me to do ( Read more... )

Last night while talking to one of my roomies, who is also the landlord, i realized that i think i have already made my decision. Actually I think I made it quite sometime ago. Probably the first time i finially stepped into the recruiters office, I just haven't had the guts to grapple with the choice I made ( Read more... )

I was planning on going home before starting graduate school. I need a chance to get away and get some perspective on life. I need to get away from all the things that remind me of Zack. It makes me crazy that when I wake up from a nightmare I still look for him ( Read more... )

I know its been a long time since i've written. I rarely get internet access so i hardly get a chance to read or write. But i'm moving home for a year...well 9 months. I'm going to do some substitute teaching in the district my step dad works at. Then after that hopefully i'll be off to grad school. I'll be leaving in August, right about the 7 ( Read more... )

does anyone read these anymore? I don't have internet access much anymore so i haven't but does anyone else...does anyone even care?

I'm trying to buy a car. 2004 Pontaic Grand AM. my car is biting the dust and i'm trying to get it done before i'm really screwed. Thanks to Zack i have good credit so getting a loan isn't much of a problem. The problem lies in the fact that my name is still on two of the vehicles. So i need to get a copy of the divorce papers showing that he ( Read more... )