it's just been so fucking long since i could be close to someone.. christmas break was all fucked up and i was fighting or bitching most of the time becuase of all the drama.. and i didn't get to see my brother.. and my sister was out with her boy toy or bible study friends all the time.. so i was really jsut alone alot. which at the time i enjoyed ( Read more... )

i don't like going to my mother's house wihtout knowing how long i will be there. i don't like spending amorphous amounts of time in that house. i get anxious and feel overwhelmed at the thought of spending more than a couple of hours there. while i am the queen of procrastination sometimes, my mad skillz in this department shine when i am trying ( Read more... )

since i've been sick these last few days, when i'm not sleeping or talking on webcam with a certain someone who is presently overseas.. i have lots of time to myself to think. yay for using our brains! so here is a sampling of my latest reflections ( Read more... )

i am just going to trust that everything is happening for a reason and everything is going to be okay. that's how i've always operated and there's no sense in changing my ways now. no more fighting the fact that i _am_ just 19 and that i _am_ only a sophomore in college. no more wanting things i can't have and pitching a fit when i don't get them. ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE THE DORMS. i pay to live here. i am required by school policy to live in a dorm for TWO FUCKING YEARS. the people who live here are the most ridiculous lot of idiots i have ever encountered. they have no respect for their environment. exhibit A: loogies in the stairwell, a regular occurence. human fecal matter in a public trashcan. ( Read more... )

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so my hair is now dark brown on top and same ol bright magenta underneath and at the bottom. i am enjoying it almost as much as i did the entirely pink 'do. i am wishing more every day that i had a kitty to cuddle with... and then i called my mom to talk about money issues, to find out our wonderful snuggly muscle-mania cat, smudge, is now a stain ( Read more... )

dear lord. this is the BEST $6 i ever spent. seriously. ever. you put the cd in and instantly you are transported to this beautiful glowing haze and everything in the whole world makes you smile like you are on drugs. seriously. it's like a happiness forcefield. then the second song comes on and you are floating and you even drive the speed limit ( Read more... )

"did i tell you about the balls ( Read more... )

if he seems too good to be true, he probably is ( Read more... )